hold on

I don't know why but it seems like these days, people close to me are on the verge of breaking down/giving up/losing hope.

I do admit that I haven't always been so cheerful. But I was always reminded that no matter what I go through, I'm never on my own. He's on my side and because of that, I'm holding on to Him.

It pains me to see my friends suffering in their own way. It scares me to think that faith could be shattered due to the problems and things that come our way. Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I ever lose faith in Him and it's something I don't ever want to imagine cause right now, He's proven to be all I need.

If you ever feel like giving up (in whatever aspect), hold on. It's easy to say and extremely difficult to do.. But where else could we go to? Who else would readily welcome us with open arms whenever we feel like everything's falling apart... Could we find strength in ourselves to go on? Never... If only we could look beyond today and know that one day, it will all end. If only we could see how one day, everything will come to pass. And life with Him is the only thing that will ever count. The only thing that will ever matter in this life on earth... Cause we're not living for ourselves, but for Him and Him alone. And for that reason, we have to cling on to His promises. Should we ever doubt Him, we might as well die cause there would no longer be any reason to live.

James 1:2-4: My brothers, consider it pure joy when you face trials of many kinds, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience (perseverance). But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking nothing.

when i go down

When I go down
I lift my eyes to You
I won't look very far
Cause You'll be there
With open arms
To lift me up again
To lift me up again

Truly, He is more than enough.

Just a short update. Finally started Community Service today. Did 1 and a half hours for a start. Some of my friends have completed 10 hours already. Actually, if I wanted to, I would've done it by now.. But due to certain reasons, I'm only starting now. It's only due by Nov 30, so it's quite a long way to go.. Will be having another LONG day tomorrow. College is having 'BBQ Nite' then. Something funny happened today, at least it is for me. Can't mention it though. =D.

Smile always.

if only

I can't be
Losing sleep over this
No I can't
And now I cannot stop pacing
Give me a few hours I'll have this all sorted out
If my mind would just stop racing

Another tiring day. I was feeling sleepy towards the end of Economics class. Somehow, Miss Thina, my Econs lecturer knew I was struggling to stay awake and she asked me bout it. So she asked all of us to stand up and do some exercise to keep us awake. Just last week, my Econs class rep really fell asleep and it took a while before he actually responded to her call. It was funny how she indirectly made fun of him. And she told him he could eat a sweet if he wants to, and he immediately took out a lolipop. Seriously. And today, he took out another one when he felt sleepy. He's now called the baby of the class. Hah.

Ironically, just yesterday in Business class, we were kinda sleepy too, and Mr. John, our lecturer, asked us to stand for awhile too. IELTS class was fun today. =). Some of us had no class before IELTS at 3.30, so we went to the Cendol stall nearby college. Not bad.

RM 1.40 per bowl (without red beans). Quite reasonable. Considering it's Brickfields

Haha. Eng Hoe finally finishing. =P

He says it's enough..

More pictures later on. Till then!

well...

Have lots to say, but I need to sleep soon. Tuesdays and Wednesdays are extra hectic compared to other days. This is the product of sleep deprivation:


Was really tired during Lit class this morning and though I managed to keep my eyes open, I was scribbling as my lecturer dictated the notes for us.

Oh, and Happy Birthday Samuel! (my first brother, the genius.)

Hope you had a great one, I think it's your first one here ever since you left home in 02.. Thanks for everything, you've been such an encouragement and have played such a big role in my life. If there's anyone to admire, it's definitely gotta be you. =)

eventful days

I actually posted something yesterday but I have no idea what happened to it. But anyway, these two days have been tiring, but it's all good. =)

Yesterday, I was out for around 15 hours. From 8 am right up to 11pm. Classes ended at 10. Went for breakfast, then wanted to do community service but no one wanted to go along, so I ended up helping to cut coupons from Games Carnival that was held today. After CF, I had an Econs replacement class since my lecturer couldn't make it the day before. At 3.30, I was supposed to go back, but help was needed for packaging stuff for Games Carnival. Nearly all of those who were supposed to help out went back, so me, Vincent, Wei Han, Isaac, Elle and Jun Yong ended up helping to pack those stuff. It was a pretty easy job, putting stuff into plastics, counting, packaging etc. And also carrying stuff up and down. By the time we finished everything, it was already close to 6. Elle and Jun Yong went back, so the rest of us went to Kenny Rogers at Sentral for dinner. I only had two muffins though; since my real dinner was gonna be with my aunt and her Japanese client.

Got home at 8plus and 15 minutes later, we went for dinner at a Jap restaurant which was the best in Malaysia, according to the Jap guy. It's called Jyu Raku. I wasn't really hungry to begin with and after yesterday's dinner, I need a break from extremely heavy meals. I wanted to take pics of the food, but I thought it was rude to do so... I will never forget the meal partly cause the first thing that came was a salad. And the Jap put some on my plate. How could I refuse and say I don't eat/like/fancy salad when he gave it to me? Had a hard time eating and was drowning everything down with green tea most of the time. Haha. Anyway, halfway during the meal, I thought we were done but more food came. He ordered this seafood gratin with cheese thing for me, and it was really good. 3 of us ate 7 things not including dessert and some of the stuff we ate were Wagyu beef, some special tofu, all kinds of seafood sushi (the size of the salmon was two times bigger than Sushi King's one.) and etc. The bill could have easily been RM400 just for the 3 of us. Food was good, but next time, I'll be sure to go with an empty stomach.

Today, I went to college again to help out for the Games Carnival. It's a games competition that involves secondary schools in the Klang Valley. Quite many people came to help out though there were only 5 people from my batch. Me, Vincent and Wei Han came without knowing what to do and I think we achieved in helping out quite alot today. Food packaging/Scoreboard/Award Ceremony/Picking Up Trash/Carrying Stuff you name it. Although it was a bit tiring, but I really felt a great sense of accomplishment just in helping out. Chilled out awhile later and then we went to Times Square. Shall leave out the rest of the details. Finally got back at 7. My aunt went to Fraser's Hill today so I'm pretty much home alone with her 7 dogs. Haha. I'm quite tired already. So till then. =)

p.s: He's faithful; always has been and always will be. Just knowing that, is all I need..

completely

It's only been a short period of time but I know I can't do it anymore. I just want to lay everything down at His feet. It's just so hard. To have false expectations, to harbor false hopes. I think it's time. Yeah, it's time. I don't know how to forget it, but I will try... I can't, but He can. For He is my source of strength.

Take my heart,
Take my soul,
I surrender everything to your control
And let all that is within me lift up to you and say
I am Yours and Yours alone
Completely.

Lord, once again, please take it all away. It's too much to bear.. Whatever it is Lord, You understand most. And that itself is comforting enough. =)

thank you

Happy Birthday Jane!


I don't usually do any birthday dedications, so here's one for you. =)

I just realized we've never really taken a picture together, except for this that you edited.


Anyway, take this as your present for the time being. Haha.

I've always known you as my brother's friend's sister and it was the same for you. And yeah, you were also the 'behind door neighbour'. Haha. Our brothers used to communicate through their room windows. I really didn't know then that we would end up being close friends too.

I only got to know you much better last year through CF, camps and stuff like that. You were one of the closest friends I had who were younger than me.

I've seen you grow spiritually and I'm so glad that God has brought about such a big change in you. Don't let this faith die, but continue to hold on to Him no matter what happens.

Thanks for everything you've said and done. I remember the times where I used to call you and just pour out everything and it was the same for you. All the tears that were shed over the phone. Haha.. We've really grown and changed much don't you think. And I believe God had a purpose for allowing us to go through what we went through, that we would be able to help and comfort one another because of it. I really don't know what would have happened if I didn't have such a friend like you.. Especially last year when it happened, you were there for me.. Even though I couldn't say much, you still understood..

Though we might not talk as much as we used to, you're still one of my closest friends and I really appreciate our friendship. Look to God always... And I'll be here too if you need me. God bless you, sis in Christ. =)