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I type this post with mixed feelings. I am sad, disappointed, surprised, shocked, unbelieving, worried, confused, you name it. Yet there's the feeling that things will look better from now on. Before I mislead you guys to thinking this is something personal, I think it's obvious what I'm talking about.

Torres leaving Liverpool for Chelsea.

Some friends are under the delusion that Torres was the main reason for my support of the club; that's because they didn't know that the club has been in my heart ever since I can remember, ever since I was a kid. The only reason I ever watched football, ever loved it was watching the team play. I could go on about the reasons I support them.

Perhaps I have been quiet about football for some time, but it doesn't mean I support them any less. Watching games has been painful, we are not where we deserve. And yes, I say we because the 12th man to Liverpool is important, and that constitutes us fans.

You can stop reading if football doesn't interest you but I just felt I needed to get this out so I can close this chapter.

I was glad when Torres chose to come to the club over teams like ManU and Arsenal. He showed a liking and passion for playing ever since he became part of the club. He played with great passion, skill and talent. He was just great to say the least, scored many and led the club to many victories. He claimed time and again how he loved being at the club and affirmed his commitment. There were rumours of him leaving to Chelsea months ago, after Rafa left, but he chose to stay. And he did the same recently, saying he loved being here.

But suddenly, news broke out that he wanted to leave. And the reason being he wants to win trophies. Bah. You stick with the club through thick and thin, after all the club has done for you. My admiration for him is diminishing every moment. If he's not part of the club anymore, then my support ends along with his leaving. I won't wish for him to get injured, that would be just bad. Chelsea isn't really one of the clubs I abhor, there's only one really. But I'd rather see him leave to other leagues than to a rival.

To end this post I shall just say; Thanks Torres, you were a great player whom I thought had a heart and looked past trophies and personal glory more than anything else. I was terribly wrong, if you had one, you wouldn't have left the club when you were a huge part in assisting them to get back to where they are supposed to be. You couldn't even wait for the summer. I respected you, that's all gone now. I can't say I wish you well, or Chelsea even. I hope the new strikers won't end up like you. You started well for sure, but you made the wrong choice to leave. I just feel sad for you, really. You were so close to being a Liverpool legend but that's all gone now. Chelsea? Seriously. And you're no different from Ronaldo... That's really disgraceful.

Yet I'm still glad to see how Liverpool has handled all this... And I'm hoping that things will look better for them now. With the new young strikers, fingers crossed for a stronger team. Let's look past all that's happened and look forward to the future. I still smile to know that for every 'betrayer' there are even more faithful players in the club.

YNWA. That's another one of those reasons why I adore the club. It's not that bad after all.

p.s: Come to think of it, I'm not really shocked anymore, he's human after all. Which reminds me, confidence in men will only let you down.

Exams are over, but I don't really feel free or anything. I guess it's probably because I wasn't stressed for it anyway, and didn't really do much studying compared to others. But nevertheless, I don't have to feel guilty anymore when I do everything else but read the books. Really, the pressure has come from all places, all but self. I guess it's good to some extent.

Overall, exams were alright. It was rather tricky but with Edexcel, you really can't tell. You think you do well, you'll be surprised with what you get and it works both ways. I'm a living proof. I don't have much plans right now. A-Levels aren't exactly done with. Final sem and it's over for good. I will be much more free this time around cause there're only 2 subjects left. Wow, that fast.

I haven't realized how fast its been.

And before I end, I'd like to address someOne, the One, who's always been there. You know, I really am at peace because of Him. No fear, no worries, no stress, it's all because of Him. Even during the papers, a calmness filled me from top to toe and even though there were parts where I wasn't sure, I still felt at peace. And it is not from me.

Thank You Lord, for Your love and grace. You truly are the difference in my life. And whatever may come, I surrender all to You.

amazing love

Your love
The only one that never fails
The only one that never ends
The only one that keeps me going
The only one that makes me strong
The only one that breathes life
The only one that changes
The only one that empowers me
The only one that makes me whole
The only one I'll ever need.

What love is this?

Even if I search all the world, I will never find a love like Yours.

Every time I find myself worried, I stop and look at You, and almost immediately, the worries fade away. Because knowing that You hold me and love me, is enough. Really and truly.

1 John 4:9-1o - God showed how much he loved us by sending his one and only Son into the world so that we might have eternal life through him. This is real love—not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as a sacrifice to take away our sins.

call

Today I experienced a timely reminder of my purpose. I have found my calling. What is it exactly you ask?

If you're referring to a likely career/profession I want to pursue, its still unclear. But really, whatever it is, it's only a instrument used to fulfill my life's calling. And it is none other than to serve Him.

I know not the way, but I know who guides me. And that in itself is enough.

I'm truly amazed Lord, at Your power. How You broke my pride, showed me what You're doing and want to do. The signs that were so obvious, the unnaturally fast heartbeats, the warmth, the tears. The struggle between the flesh and the spirit and the soul torn in between.

Yet You chose to reign, You chose to rule, and as You worked in me, my soul gladly lifted up to look at You. And in You, I found my purpose. As You always have been.

I won't run away from Your call. I'll trust You, yes, I'll trust You.

The Lord is faithful, always.

questions without answers

"It seems like the more I know, the less I understand."

I find it so true now.

My first paper is tomorrow today; it's Religious Studies. I was keen on taking the subject ever since I heard it was offered in college; c'mon, it's Methodist College. Although I couldn't take it in my first sem since no one else was taking it up, I managed to in my second sem. And I couldn't be more grateful.

My main reason for taking the subject isn't because I think I can ace it and get a free A (far from that really) but it's because I genuinely love it. What could be better than learning about Him? That's how I see it.

The main reason for this post is that I've realized how much I don't know and don't understand. And perhaps I never will.

For Unit 2, what I'm doing now, we have to choose a single topic, do our own research and produce an essay using our research material based on the prompt given during the exam. Of the 6 topics made available to us:

The Study of the New Testament
16 Religion and science
17 New Testament ethics and morality
18 Life after death
The Study of Christianity and the Christian Church
19 The development of the Church up to and including the Reformation
20 The Modern Period
21 Christian belief and practice

I chose the one in bold. Nothing captures my attention more than this and it has always been something I've often thought about. After reading all my past research materials I honestly feel quite lost. There's so many loopholes to the theories that people have conjured based on their interpretation of the Bible. Even within the Church, beliefs are divided.

But this cannot be a time for me to turn back on all that I've believed in. In fact, I'm inspired to continue in faith.

Perhaps I will post on what I've researched, to really give you guys something to think about.

Before I go I just want to say that our human mind can only understand so much; we will never be able to comprehend all that is in this life; especially when it comes to Him.

I surrender it all to You Lord, although I don't understand, I know that only You can reveal this knowledge to me. But more than anything, You desire that I continue trusting You. With this, I am at peace.

:)

as always

First paper's on Wednesday. People ask me how's my revision. I dare not answer.

Have 4 papers altogether; one for each subject... 19, 24, 2 on the 28th. Then I'll be back for a week and classes commence on Feb 7th...

Anyway, to answer the question; revision has been close to zero. Somehow, the more exams I take, the more relaxed I become. January exams, I started revision 5 days before the real day; June exams I was super irregular in revision; and it was around 4 days or less I started getting serious...

Now? 3 days left and I still don't feel the pressure. And I haven't started revising either.

But then again, no point worrying. Can't get back the 'lost' time. Sorry if it sounds repetitive; I know I always say this before exams start.

I know I can't take His grace for granted. And I am well aware of the possible consequences of my lack of effort. Therefore, I shall not complain no matter what. Right now, I'll see what can be done and as usual, leave the rest to Him.

He's really all I need. One day, when my life ends, all this will mean nothing. Even right now, it doesn't really matter much to me which is why I'm so laidback about it...

But I know it's such a thin line between being calm and being complacent.. I see myself leaning more toward the latter.

Oh well... Enough said.

God bless people!

What In The World Is Going On? by Dr. David Jeremiah

One day we hear of a natural disaster;

The next day we hear of oil prices escalating;

Two days later we hear of war breaking out.

In due time, one will eventually ask such a question (as in the title). This book seeks to shed light on the issues that are taking place in the world and its relevance to all that has been prophesied in the Word.

The book is nicely divided into ten chapters that cover separate issues. This makes it understandable and easy for the reader. However, the overall message of the book continues to be seen throughout in a great flow.

As mentioned earlier, this book is really for those who want to know more about the last things (eschatology) and a better understanding of issues such as the;

- The oil crisis
- The importance of Israel as God's chosen nation
- The Antichrist
- The new axis of evil

He uses a lot of references; there is no personal bias toward the subject. More importantly, he quotes a lot of Scripture and interprets the issue based on what the Word says. Prophecies by the prophets Ezekiel, Daniel, Joel (to name a few) have been comprehensively covered in view of the issue.

This book has made me realize how ignorant I have been of the things that are taking place in the world. The interest in the last things have sparked within me since finishing this book leaving me with a hunger to know and understand more. It was an interesting read from start to finish. For many people, things covered in the book might be frightful but the author remind us of the very important truths; as His people, we need not fear but live in expectancy of His coming. He exhorts us to live for Him and allow the prophecies to be a wake up call for each of us. A sub message of faith, hope and love continues throughout.

The King is coming!

A worthy read.

*I received this book free from the publisher through the BookSneeze.com book review bloggers program. All opinions expressed are of my own.*