frivolous

They say college applications will drive you mad to the point where you feel like pulling out all your hair.

I've got less than a month to complete everything and no I haven't reached that stage yet. 

Progress = 30% 

Frivolous' the word for me.

I'm taking the SAT on Saturday; already planned it some time ago, at least 2 months ago but look at how much time I have left now. Procrastination - I really have nothing to say. Only have myself to blame. But then again, no point regretting now. I'll try to make the most out of these few days left. 

When my mum's friend heard I was going to prepare for the SATs in a week; she was shocked; "Is that even possible? I thought it'd take months to be ready."

If I can break 2000, it'd be a miracle. There's only so much one can do, right.

Exams are in January but I have to set it aside for now; at least till applications are done with. 

And just a reminder; life is short, it really is.

It hurts to see the ones you love suffer. It often makes you question the One above... 

But I choose to believe; everything happens for a reason. I know it to be true.

I echo Job's words... "I know that You can do all things, & that no purpose of Yours can be thwarted"

For that reason, I am secure. :)

you won't know

You are gone before I had the chance to say it,

You are gone before I said its you I miss, 

You are gone before I got the chance and I know it's time to let go.

I really don't know what to say. I don't know what to feel either. 

It's kinda sad to see that things have become like this; just before you had to leave. 

We were always close, without a care, we were different. No matter what people said, we knew what we were. And I was happy while you were around. You were nothing more than a close friend.

Never wanted this, never want to see you hurt

Then I don't know what happened; and I'm left wondering why. It's unfair to you, and it hurts me too. But we're still acting as if nothing's wrong; you don't even know that I know. And there's no way I can ever say I knew. 

I thought I could tell you what you mean to me, but things will just get more complicated and I can't risk that.

I have enough complications in my life. 

Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fall out

So this is where it ends. I'm really sorry. 

I have to let this go; let you go. 

I wish we could go back to those days... But that will never happen.

It's two a.m., feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know it's not easy, easy for me

It's time. 

Goodbye. 

I'm back home. Today was the last day of the 3rd semester; it's been a good one. Compared to the previous two, it was just different. New lessons, new experiences, new friendships, new problems. Strengthening of ties, moments of realization - it all came. I'll blog more about this another time.

Lots of things to do now; besides the usual.

God bless!

Coursework's been FINALLY handed in. Really such a relief.

Will be going back on Friday.

2 more days to spend with my July peeps (Science and few of the Arts people)

It's really sad just thinking about it.

But I always knew the time will come. We all do.

Gone

The song I wrote with Vicki; the lines in italic are the ones I wrote, just to distinguish. :)

Gone

I can’t believe how I just let you go

I didn’t know when it started to grow

These feelings left inside are hurting so

I always showed that you weren’t even close

Just when I realized what you mean to me

* You’ll be gone before I get the chance to say this

You’ll be gone long before I say it’s you I miss

You’ll be gone before I get the chance though I know it’s time to let go

To let go

It was a Friday when you came to me

Just like a dream that I couldn’t see

And then I think about the days where you

Would comfort me and let me be

And when I realized what you mean to me

There’s no point dancing my fingers on ivory anymore

Cause you are the life of my melody

So now the time has come for you to leave; before you go

There is just one thing you need to know… 

The song personally means alot to me, just felt like saying that...

gone - music video

I posted this on FB, but I'll put it here anyway. 

So college had a music video competition organized by the Sessions Club. We had to submit our video this past Monday and today was the event where we watched the videos and the winners were chosen etc.

I simply put my name in for fun not thinking about what to do. Winner would get prize money but that wasn't even in my mind; competition was too tough. Got Vicki in with me and we decided to do an original song since it bears more marks; she had a chorus so I took it and added the remaining parts; then we wrote the bridge as well. She came over my place during the weekend and we barely slept; editing the video and all. 

Anyway, it turns out pretty okay and by God's grace we came in 2nd place. Really unexpected; the other entries were good as well. Kenneth came in 1st; good for him. I owe it to my awesome batch mates who supported us all the way. Though our batch is the smallest; they came and cheered the most. 

And the song really means a lot to me; I shall not go on about it. 

Credits to Mei Xian and Isaac for being our actors and all the rest who came in as well. 

Thank God for everything.

And thank you.

the end

So there's exactly a week left; not counting the next two days for the Science people in college. At this moment, I feel grateful that I still have another semester to go; I'm definitely not ready to leave yet. 

But at the same time, with 3/4 of my friends leaving; college won't be the same. I'll save this for next time. I just want to say that it'll be hard to see them leave, especially those I'm close to.

We live in a world that is constantly moving fast; change comes; people come and go; some you will never meet again.

And He reminded me that when everything fades; when everyone leaves.

He remains...

How comforting...

He's enough for me.