to the heart

O restless heart,
Fret not.
It gets better in time, I know, I've been there.

What it takes now is for you to trust-
Trust that He knows what's going on
And everything will work out in His time and way.

Your desires - He comprehend.
His Love compels Him to grant your desires
But not if it isn't what He placed in you Himself.

So come on now,
Take a leap of faith.
You won't regret it.
He will come to the rescue, He will.

Thoughts With No End

Once again, I'm contemplating if I should stop blogging altogether. I would admit that one reason would be that there are only a few who actually [still] follow this blog. The blogging era seems to have ended for many and I occasionally wonder if my time has come. Does the world really need to know what I do, think and feel?

The answer is obvious. Yet there's something, I don't quite know what that draws me back to this place. Yes, perhaps I don't update as often as I used to and I might not ever get back to that stage again. But this place is too close to my heart to simply abandon... Even if it gets to the point where no one reads this, I cannot do it.

I might be just another ordinary person. But I serve an extraordinary God. Therefore, I live to sing His praises, to honor and glorify Him.

This blog has chronicled my journey through all the pain, the joy and the confusion. God has remained to be my refuge and strength. He has been and ever will be faithful to me. Despite my fears and failures, He always picks me up and draws me ever close to Him.

So I shall continue, to let the world know, what He's done for me.

When you have found happiness, you cannot do anything but share it. When you have found love, everything changes. Nothing else matters.

I am in love with the Lover of all. He fills the emptiness in me no one can. Despite my constant longings for companionship, He reminds me that this void, only He can fill. This Love, only He can give... And it is more than enough.

through it all

I'll sing to You Lord, a hymn of love, for Your faithfulness to me.
I'm carried in everlasting arms, You'll never let me go through it all.

5 years ago (and the years before), I was naive and not knowing much; was so carefree.

4 years ago, I fell in grew to love. And it was a journey downhill. To a place of pain; one I never came across before. I couldn't understand.

3 years ago, I lost the one who meant most to me. And he never came back (not in a way I had hoped it to be). But at the same time, I learned to see and appreciate the One who was always there for me.

2 years ago, by His grace and miraculous power, the healing process begun. I finally let go.

1 year ago, I began to understand and see why He allowed me to walk through the valley back then. And I can't imagine it any other way.

Now I'm here. Completely speechless at how He's carried me through. I said I couldn't, He said He could. Yes I lost him, things never were the same again. But I gained something much more instead. I would never be here if those days never came to pass. All the tears were worth it. I look at him now and smile; knowing that He was always right. He loves me, wants the best for me. I found joy when I allowed Him to take control.

Would you?

Psalm 145:18 - The LORD is near to all who call on him, to all who call on him in truth.

There is no pain without purpose. Look to Him.

people get ready

I initially loathed Idol this year cause the quality was far from good; except for a few. But as I watched, I guess I didn't hate it so much and ended up having a few favourites. So now it's down to Lee and Crystal. Not surprised, most people expected it anyway. Finale's happening tonight in America and I hope Crystal wins, though I have a feeling Lee has a higher chance. She's really good, and different from any other female contestant on the show. I don't dislike Lee, but I don't fancy him cause I stubbornly feel that no one can come close to David Cook and in the rocker genre, only he stands out for me. IMO, there's not been anyone more original, really talented with performances that just blow you away. 

Speaking of which, here's one of Crystal's performances that left me with goosebumps. I was moved just watching it. A must watch. :)

I've never heard this song prior to Idol but now that I have, I think it's a really great song. It's gospel-influenced, not necessarily Christian but I think the message it brings leave us with a lot to think about.

Just my own interpretation of the song.. 

People get ready, there's a train a comin'
You don't need no baggage, you just get on board
All you need is faith to hear the diesels hummin'
Don't need no ticket, you just thank the Lord

I think too often, we overlook the importance of faith and try to do this and that, bringing our baggages along with us. Our baggage could be in the form our our burdens, loads and worries. All that we find hard to leave behind. But we need to realize that faith is what will bring us through and deeper in our relationship with Him. We need to leave the rest behind. And we should thank Him, for His mercy and grace, that has opened the door for us to live a new life. 

There ain't no room for the hopeless sinner
Who would hurt all mankind just to save his own
Have pity on those whose chances grow thinner
For there's no hiding place against the Kingdom's throne

I like this verse too; it's message is quite obvious. No one is excluded from the Kingdom of God. We can all identify with being a hopeless sinner, selfishly living for ourselves. Whether or not we realize it, all of us have been here (maybe we still are). And He, the perfect One, would accept us all; no one is excluded.

Simply amazing, His love.

People get ready, cause He is coming. It's never too late to know Him, it's never too late come back. There's a love, that surpasses all understanding. And it's already here. :)

hear my cry

Just like David cried out to You,
Here I am; I come before Your throne
You see my heart; You know it well.
So many things I want to say;
I just want to cry out.
All my fears, desires and dreams,
I lay it all before You

I will see the goodness of You
In the land of the living
Ever Faithful God; so true
All I need is You

Though I am broken now
And cannot understand what I go through
I know that when I see You; I will.
All I want to do now is to surrender and trust You
It's what You would want
I will follow You..

Psalm 16:11 - You will show me the way of life, granting me the joy of your presence and the pleasures of living with you forever.

hope

Just because I don't see it; doesn't mean it's not there.... Just because we can't see how things will work out; doesn't mean it won't.... Just because we're hurt now; doesn't mean we won't get better.

How often we allow our feelings and circumstances to hinder us from seeing what's ahead. The darkness seems to hide the light at times. And we know that at the end of the tunnel; there's a light that's shining. When you've lost that strength in you; when you feel like you can't go on; what do you do??

This is from a post I wrote last year; in my previous blog:
Don't ever doubt what God can do. Cause it really hurts when you ever question the One who loves you more than you can ever imagine. If we could understand how He would feel, then maybe our lives would be radically changed..

As much as I'm feeling broken; I also have this joy in me. Because I know that He sees the pain; and He will come through to me... He's more than I could ever ask for... The flesh might tell me otherwise.. But this I know:

Psalm 62:6 - He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.

So friends, I encourage you to never lose hope; you might lose it in this world; but never give up on Him.... No matter what we may feel; no matter what may happen; we know that our hope is found in Him.

The God who created the Universe and everything you see; created YOU... He knows our need; He knows our weakness.. And He will NEVER fail.

In Christ alone; my hope is found.

A Word For The Weary

Nothing much to blog about today except for the fact that I'll be taking my driving test tomorrow. It was supposed to be last week, but I went to Cherating, so I postponed it. Which turned out to be a good thing, cause I get to practice more. Had the last hour and one extra yesterday morning which was pretty funny cause after not touching the car for two weeks, it was kinda rusty for awhile. So I had to take another two hours today.. Even though I'm not THAT prepared I know that trusting Him is the only thing I can do right now.

And it brings me to realize that every single thing in our lives should be brought before Him in prayer.. Oh how easily we forget the fact that He's watching over us, waiting for us to call upon Him.. And how often we overlook the need to come to Him in prayer, even in the smallest matters. After all, He is God. Therefore, He deserves All we could possibly give to Him.. It's so beautiful to know that our Father smiles down from Heaven when our hearts are trusting and devoted to Him..

John 14:1 - "Don't let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God and trust also in me."

Dear restless heart, be still; don't fret and worry so;
God has a thousand ways His love and help to show;
Just trust, and trust and trust, until His will you know.

Dear restless heart, be still, for peace is God's own smile,
His love can every wrong and sorrow reconcile;
Just love, and love, and love and calmly wait awhile

Dear restless heart, be brave; don't moan and sorrow so,
He has a meaning kind in chilly winds that blow;
Just hope, and hope, and hope, until your braver grow.

Dear restless heart, recline upon His breast this hour,
His grace is strength and life, His love is bloom and flower;
Just rest, and rest, and rest, within His tender power.

Dear restless heart, be still! Don't struggle to be free;
God's life is in your life, from Him you may not flee;
Just pray, and pray, pray, till you have faith to see. Eddith Willis Linn

There's nothing my God cannot do.