Life is all you make it

Nothing much to update about the past few days. Same routine as usual. Nothing much. Nevertheless, I did manage to watch and finish up a drama. 1 Litre of Tears; you've probably heard of it. I think it's the only show that made me cry in nearly every episode (there's 11 eps). That touching. Won't touch on the storyline, you can check it out if you're interested. But it's really worth your time. It makes you appreciate life more. And will probably change your mindset about certain things.. Sometimes I do wish more shows would be like that. Simple, straight to the point and it makes you feel involved with the characters. Shows nowadays have just too much stuff till it makes you feel lost. At least, that's how it is for me. Till then. =)

Down But Not Out

Ignore the title. Just a filler. Haha

And for those of you who don't already know, I failed my driving test. And, not one part but both parts. Let's see what happened.

I was in for the third session. Instructor picked me up from the nursery around 11 something and we went straight to LSA. He told me my test would start around 2. At 2, we had some kind of small briefing then we started with the slope. I had higher hopes for this compared to the test on the road.. So I really hoped to pass this. To cut the long story short, I failed the slope due to my own mistake. No complain there. So I thought I still had a little hope for the road part..

I went into the car after my tester drove the girl before me back to the centre. Which means she failed due to some major mistakes. Was praying hard I wouldn't do anything so serious. Anyway, I just drove like normal. I know when my driving is okay and when it's bad. And that day it was okay.. So I didn't expect to fail straightaway cause I did not make any major errors. And suddenly when I was driving, she stopped me without saying a word and drove me back. I was wondering what I did wrong and yeah I was really upset. When we got back to the centre, she wrote some comments on the paper and then started crossing out the boxes. And what she did was cross out EVERYTHING except the first few things.. And left me with 6/20 marks. Hear this, I did not go pass the traffic light, but she crossed it. I did not overtake, but she crossed it. I did not drive dangerously, but she crossed it. And the list goes on. Not to mention, the reasons why I failed, had its own box on the paper, which means I shouldn't have failed on the spot..

Don't know if you understand what I'm talking about but it was really, really frustrating for me. To fail for no Valid reason. To be marked off just like that. Looks like she wasn't really testing me since she simply crossed out everything just to fail me. I wasn't upset cause I failed, but more to burderning my parents with paying more for my exam retake and extra lessons. Called my mum after I failed and she told me it was alright.. I do admit I was very upset about it.. But soon enough, He comforted me. And reminded me that it's gonna be alright..

And I just want to say that if we could learn to see Him in all things, we would know that everything has its purpose. It's not always God who causes things to happen because sometimes its due to our own mistakes, but He does allow it. If there was nothing for us to learn from it, then it would all be in vain. If only our shallow minds would begin to understand the fact that our God is Good All the time.. If only we could stop being childish and stop blaming Him for everything. If only we could stop complaining about how hard life is, about the problems we go through and start to see that it's much needed for the refinement of our faith.. Then we will truly be living a blessed and righteous life.. Our frustrations are only part of life.. What would we be without it?

A Word For The Weary

Nothing much to blog about today except for the fact that I'll be taking my driving test tomorrow. It was supposed to be last week, but I went to Cherating, so I postponed it. Which turned out to be a good thing, cause I get to practice more. Had the last hour and one extra yesterday morning which was pretty funny cause after not touching the car for two weeks, it was kinda rusty for awhile. So I had to take another two hours today.. Even though I'm not THAT prepared I know that trusting Him is the only thing I can do right now.

And it brings me to realize that every single thing in our lives should be brought before Him in prayer.. Oh how easily we forget the fact that He's watching over us, waiting for us to call upon Him.. And how often we overlook the need to come to Him in prayer, even in the smallest matters. After all, He is God. Therefore, He deserves All we could possibly give to Him.. It's so beautiful to know that our Father smiles down from Heaven when our hearts are trusting and devoted to Him..

John 14:1 - "Don't let your hearts be troubled. Trust in God and trust also in me."

Dear restless heart, be still; don't fret and worry so;
God has a thousand ways His love and help to show;
Just trust, and trust and trust, until His will you know.

Dear restless heart, be still, for peace is God's own smile,
His love can every wrong and sorrow reconcile;
Just love, and love, and love and calmly wait awhile

Dear restless heart, be brave; don't moan and sorrow so,
He has a meaning kind in chilly winds that blow;
Just hope, and hope, and hope, until your braver grow.

Dear restless heart, recline upon His breast this hour,
His grace is strength and life, His love is bloom and flower;
Just rest, and rest, and rest, within His tender power.

Dear restless heart, be still! Don't struggle to be free;
God's life is in your life, from Him you may not flee;
Just pray, and pray, pray, till you have faith to see. Eddith Willis Linn

There's nothing my God cannot do.

A Valentine Indeed

Valentine's Day has no significance to me. Because I don't believe that there's only ONE day in which you do whatever people do on this very day. Every day is an opportunity to show your love for your family, friends and loved ones. But most importantly, to Him.

Anyhow, I do ponder on this day. And I want to love Him so much more than I do right now..

With all my heart,
With all my soul,
With all my might,
I want to love You Lord.

It's also a reminder for us to genuinely love each other.

Romans 12: 9-10 - Don't just pretend to love others. Really love them. Hate what is wrong. Hold tightly to what is good. Love each other with genuine affection and take delight in honoring each other.

There's always a certain mindset we tend to have when it comes to special events. For Valentine's, people usually think it's just for couples. How easily we forget that it all means NOTHING when God doesn't take first place; when our love for Him is not present in our hearts. So, if you haven't already thought about it.. If you have been feeling slightly upset due to being single while people have their 'dates'. (Nothing unusual). Always remember that when His love occupies our hearts, and when we respond to Him, we will find exceeding joy and a growing capacity to love, and slowly, when our hearts are full with love, we will begin to overflow into the lives of the people around us. =)

Cause I am nothing, I am nothing without You.

Hmmm

Really, really tired right now. I can just fall asleep, but i won't just yet.. Going to Cherating tomorrow and was debating with myself cause honestly, I don't feel like going. No personal reason why.. Lazy maybe. I think so. But it's too late to pull out, so I'll just see if it was worth it when i get back. That'll be on Friday. Bus leaving Cherating on Thursday night, will reach here around 1-2 am.. and I'll be working at 8. Gonna be really tiring, but I don't want to take too many days off.
Too lazy to pack tonight. So yeah, will blog again when I'm back. Till then!

I'll miss you..... alot.

When a Nursery Goes Wild...

It leaves me mentally and physically exhausted.

Picture this:

10 kids sitting on chairs, while ABC's are being flashed.

I'm the only one with them in the hall. And suddenly, one starts shouting. Followed by a train of shouts from the other kids.

I ask them to stop. But my polite request was drowned by the noise. Not wanting to seem rude, I ask them again. Second attempt failed.

Instead, 8 of them get off their chairs and start running around. One girl grabs a toy and the other kids start pulling it away from her. They start teasing and pinching her. She cries.

I try to stop them, and manage to after awhile. But, they refuse to sit!

They continue shouting and some screaming. And then there were the complains: "Teacher, he beat me!" etc.

I try to calm them down for the next five minutes but I failed yet again!

And this went on for at least 20 minutes. Till the other teacher who was in the kitchen came out with a cane..........

So, maybe it isn't as bad as it sounds. But trust me, it really does wear you out. I think and I know that the reason why they don't really listen to me is cause I don't scold them enough. So yeah, they take advantage. It just feels weird today cause usually it isn't like this. They can usually be under control. Well, despite everything, of course I'm still gonna continue working. I don't think there's any reason for me to stop. And just by being among them, I learn alot from them as well. Which are to come later. I will retire early tonight, hopefully.

Work

Public holiday tomorrow. And of all things, I'm going to jog in the morning. I don't really know who's going actually. Just a few of them. But then I think I just recently mentioned on my plans to exercise. So it might be a good start after all. =D.

Since I can't think of anything much to blog about, I'll touch abit on my work at the nursery..

Honestly, I don't think I'd even call it work. I go there around 8.15 and finish at 1. I don't want to bore you with all the details. So here's what I do: I feed them. Sometimes bathe them. See that they do their work. Teach them. Sing with them. Play with them. Get bullied by some of them. You get the picture. I'll take pictures on the last day of work, which I'm not sure when. Not so nice to take pictures I guess. Some of them are really cute! But still, no one can beat my brother when it comes to being the most annoying/active/irritating/hyper/stubborn/lazy. I'm not a bad sister cause I don't bully him. It's THE OTHER WAY ROUND. And I'm dead serious. Ask anyone. But of course I'll miss him terribly when I leave. Though I think he would miss me more. Again, I'm not kidding cause he doesn't allow me to go =(.

Anyway, I'm actually enjoying my work. Even though I've got to get up early and sometimes I get really sleepy, it's still nice to work with the kids.. And to see them being so carefree, does lift up my spirits. There's a lady who works there full day, so she does the cooking and stuff like that. Since I'm there to help now, she can do less teaching and do other things without worrying about the kids.. And my boss, the lady who owns the nursery, is really nice. Work is quite flexible. There's no like HAVE to work 30 days a month thing. I can take leave if I have to, as long as she's informed. I am really blessed indeed.

One thing I'm sure of is that I won't be doing Child Education or anything like it. Yes, I do enjoy working with children. But I'm not those type of people with a real passion for them to go into that line. Anyhow, it's a really great experience! And I've much to learn. =).

I thank God for YOU

Thoughts Running Through My Head

I've just been thinking, for the past few minutes..

I'm so afraid that it will happen again.

To have a heart broken twice.

Is unthinkable.

But,

In the midst of my thoughts and fears,

I hear a Voice calling out.

To listen.

And it's in the Stillness that He speaks.

That He assures me just what I need to do.

That is to Trust Him.

For there's no other way.

Job 34:29a - When he giveth quietness, who then can make trouble?

10 Things..

So I have around 5 months left in Ipoh before I go to KL. 4 and a half months to be exact. And I have a LONG list of things I want/hope to do before I say goodbye to long holidays..

1. As I mentioned earlier, Exercise. Take up a sport and play regularly.

2. Read some of the books I have at home and maybe get some more.

3. Watch all the movies I want to.

4. Eat. Regain whatever piano knowledge/'skills' I used to have. I dropped piano when I was 11. So yeah. Just hope to learn up some songs =).

5. Brush up on guitar.

6. Go on Holiday. Cherating (next week), Singapore, Sydney (hopefully).

7. Do some research on the subjects I'll be taking for A-Levels.

8. Start learning up the basics of Nihongo (Jap language).

9. Earn some money. Currently am working part-time. Yet to mention about it.

10. Soul-searching. Heh. Spend quality time with friends.

I thought we were going to Cherating tomorrow. No one said anything about it being postponed to next week. It's a good thing I haven't packed yet. Driving test was supposed to be on the 11th, but since I'll be away, it's on the 16th now. Have 1 hour left on the road and I know I'm definitely gonna need an extra 1/2 or maybe even 3 hours. Anyway, that's it for now. =)