Really brief one for now.

Ipoh's been good. Great, in fact.

Phone's been fixed; some buttons were spoilt since July.

Thank You Lord for everything...

I am blessed indeed.

Still unsure about certain things.. 

I choose to trust; there's really nothing else I can do.

You allowed this; I will not complain but embrace all You have for me.

We're always asking Him what we should do; but you know sometimes for certain things I think He really wants us to just decide on our own. 

He guides me, through every step of the way.

I'm comforted. 

:)

Loves

Proverbs 19:21 - Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.

thoughts

Trials start tomorrow; two papers and I'm going back right after that. 

I'm not really prepared... But then again, too late to regret or anything.

I'm not worried bout the exams; it's other things that are bothering me...

Possibilities; they hurt. 

Because the more you think about it; the more you realize it might just be you; it's not real. And you're brought back to reality.

I really can't tell what's going on. As much as I hope; I know that there's a large chance I'm going to end up being disappointed again.

There's really nothing else I can do but trust. Yet I'm grateful for all that's happened. I really couldn't have asked for more.. Thank You Lord for allowing me to be happy... And though pain is not too far away; I ask for Your strength to guide me through these times... 

Psalm 73:26 - My health may fail, and my spirit may grow weak, but God remains the strength of my heart; he is mine forever.

You're all I need.

love

God isn't just loving; He is Love.

How often we forget the simple truth; that He loves us.

His love completes us. It's beautiful.

"I have loved you with an everlasting love." No one on earth will ever be able to say such a thing because simply put; no one has the full capacity to love unconditionally; eternally... But there is One who does.

Take some time to just ponder on what it really means; to be loved by Him...

Truly, the more we understand His love; the more we are changed. 

Psalm 33:22 - Let Your unfailing love surround us Lord, for our hope is in You alone

When all of a sudden, 
I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory,
And I realise just how beautiful You are,
And how great Your affections are for me.

He loves us. :)

my source of strength

I'm done with my coursework; just the conclusion left but it will suffice for now till trials are over.

Kinda relieved but I know there's ALOT of editing and rewriting to be done cause I would admit that I didn't put much effort into it; it's not the best I can come up with; haven't read that much either to put together something really great. That's exactly how I felt for my previous coursework folder but somehow it fared well. This time however, is a different story. Oh, well, at least there's still time to edit.

I'm just so amazed to see how He's carried me through this. I literally had to force myself to write on Sunday; cause my whole Saturday was spent doing nothing productive; aside from going to church. Planned to write 700-800 words; ended up writing 900. I prayed for His strength and He did grant me what I requested. Today, I had to write my last paragraph and expected to finish in at least 3 hours; I'm an hour ahead of schedule... Thank You Lord. :)

Trials are coming up next week; Tuesday's my first two papers then I can go home for a few days till the next paper. Although I don't think it'd be such a good idea cause I end up sleeping most of the time. So, those in Ipoh, please remind me to study. Hah.

And as always I haven't started studying. I'll try to start tomorrow... I amuse myself.

Oh today's 20.10.2010; didn't realize it till just now. I recall exactly what happened 1 year ago; perhaps some of you might know it... Alot has changed since then; and of course the wounds have healed; His love did it.

great

The week has been a great one to say the least. High Praise was on Friday; the events that led to it were uncalled for; problems arose and for a moment it seemed as if it wasn't going to go well; but God is so much greater than we know and at the end of the day, I learnt that when we give it all to Him, He blesses us tremendously. 

I have alot to say about it; how He came and touched me personally when I really needed His strength and comfort prior to the event. But this would suffice for now. 

I've also stepped down as V.P for CF, it's been a year serving in the CF committee, half a year as vp; it's been a humbling and great journey. I will also post the things in which I've learnt from serving... 

A few events during the week have particularly cheered me; which I will not mention. I have to say I am really surprised they took place after all... And I thank God for the wonderful opportunities; never would've imagined it... I am blessed indeed. 

I am happy; His joy fills me.. :)

Right now, I just wanna thank Him for everything. For showering me with love each and everyday.. 

Psalm 16:8 - I have set the LORD always before me. Because he is at my right hand, I will not be shaken. 

testimony of grace

I just had to share this. God is so REAL.

This morning when I was going out of the house (condo) to go to college, I was gonna wear my sport shoes on and then I realized - it was gone... I always put it beside the cupboard. So I texted Joyce, who I'm staying with and asked if she saw it; she said she saw it last night; we assumed it was stolen... There could be no other reason for the shoes to be gone. It's within reach from the grill door. But who would want to steal shoes??? Oh well. 

I didn't really feel angry anything (what for..); just sad that I have to burden my parents to get me another pair; so I prayed that by some way the shoes would be returned but I didn't have high hopes on it... 

When I came back just now; the shoes weren't there of course... But before I went inside, I had a prompting to check the fire exit... I ignored it at first but then I thought; what if its the Spirit? At the same time I was doubting that anything will happen... I still went and true enough my shoes were there... I was really, really amazed and grateful.. God You amuse me... 

Isn't it amazing how He works? How He speaks? It's through these little things that proves His very existence, His love and grace... I did think of it; even if I didn't find my shoes; I have no reason to complain. For every trouble/problem is an opportunity to experience His grace, to trust in Him.. To hold on to Him. To forgive, to exercise patience; the list will go on and on...

It's a good day.. Thank You Lord... :)

Your love takes my breath away.

I've found a new joy in His presence, new joy in being with Him everyday. No wonder I've been so empty; I haven't been coming to Him enough. There's been so many distractions in my life; so many unnecessary things.. Trying to cut down on my time online; I'm limiting myself now... It's not exactly a really hard thing to do to be honest... I just realized how much time I've wasted; guilty...

I am really tired right now; physically.. The past weeks have been tiring (particularly last week) and this week is packed with long college hours and practices; it's a joy though... Assignments piling up, coursework left unattended; applications not started on, trials coming up... the list will go on. Yet I'm not moved; I'm not afraid. For He is with me, He is my strength and He will never fail.

Just a few insights;

1. The knowledge and a deeper understanding of His love will change us if we open up our hearts... It is impossible not to be changed when we realize how much He's given to us...

2. Living a life apart from Him is meaningless; worldly pursuits fade in time. (more on this later)

3. Everything will fade away; He alone shall remain.. That in itself is such an amazing thing.. 

4. Rest is not something He gives; it is in Him we find rest; not a thing to be taken apart. 

5. Being still requires us to just be quiet; not to ask Him anything; not to utter anything; but just waiting upon Him.

6. The closer we get to Him; the more we grow in our relationship with Him; the lesser our desire will be for the things of the world... 

Indeed, You are all I need in this life. 

his love

Ephesians 3:18-19 - And may you have the power to understand, as all God's people should, how wide, how long, how high, and how deep, his love is. May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from God.

Just last Monday, I was in the train back to KL in the morning. And when I closed my eyes, I suddenly saw a mental picture; it was a picture of a cup and a HUGE container. I couldn't see how big the container was, but it seemed to have no end to its size. I began to think what it could possibly mean and as I continued to ponder, I felt the Lord was reminding me of His love.

The cup represents our lives and the container represents all that is of Him; His love. Every day, we must come to Him with our cup that can only contain small portions. The container has no limit in size, just like how His love is.. He wants to fill our cups daily, with the knowledge and experience of His love. And as we faithfully come to Him with our cup, He will fill it more and more each day. But it doesn't stop here, we should not be content with just being 'full' but for our cup to overflow continually. David said "my cup overflows, surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life"Indeed, it is when our cup overflows that His love will begin to permeate each and every area of our lives, and eventually, His love will be too much to contain that we begin to "overflow" into the lives of those around us. 

Can there be anything greater than knowing how much He loves you? 

You can search the whole world and you will never find greater love than this.

Yet aren't we always guilty of searching for other loves? I myself would admit that I often forget that it is in His love I am made complete - He is more than enough for me.

The knowledge and understanding of His love transforms us - as we open up our hearts... Never be content, never be satisfied... 

Indeed, His love knows no bounds.