thank you

Happy Birthday Jane!


I don't usually do any birthday dedications, so here's one for you. =)

I just realized we've never really taken a picture together, except for this that you edited.


Anyway, take this as your present for the time being. Haha.

I've always known you as my brother's friend's sister and it was the same for you. And yeah, you were also the 'behind door neighbour'. Haha. Our brothers used to communicate through their room windows. I really didn't know then that we would end up being close friends too.

I only got to know you much better last year through CF, camps and stuff like that. You were one of the closest friends I had who were younger than me.

I've seen you grow spiritually and I'm so glad that God has brought about such a big change in you. Don't let this faith die, but continue to hold on to Him no matter what happens.

Thanks for everything you've said and done. I remember the times where I used to call you and just pour out everything and it was the same for you. All the tears that were shed over the phone. Haha.. We've really grown and changed much don't you think. And I believe God had a purpose for allowing us to go through what we went through, that we would be able to help and comfort one another because of it. I really don't know what would have happened if I didn't have such a friend like you.. Especially last year when it happened, you were there for me.. Even though I couldn't say much, you still understood..

Though we might not talk as much as we used to, you're still one of my closest friends and I really appreciate our friendship. Look to God always... And I'll be here too if you need me. God bless you, sis in Christ. =)

one shot

I'm confused.
I don't know what's going on.
I can't understand why I feel like this.
Over thinking has always been one of greatest weaknesses.
To the point where the things I thought of became the problem itself.
But the thing is, it was all in my mind.

Somehow it feels like it's happening again.
Or at least, it will.
There's a thousand possibilities why you were silent.
But I can only think of one.

I can't take it how no matter how hard I try
I don't seem to be going anywhere.
No matter how hard I try to believe that there's hope,
It seems nearly impossible.

And then I wonder if it's the past
That's causing me to feel this way.
To feel that there's no hope; none at all.
There isn't much time left
And honestly, I'm not asking for much.
I just need this one shot.
That's all I'm asking for.

But then again, despite feeling this way;
Despite feeling tired of all that's going on;
Of all that I'm afraid of, of the hope I have;
That might never be fulfilled,
I can never be too disappointed
Cause ultimately, all I want is You.
What can this world offer,
When compared to the joy You bring?
Nothing in this world will last.
Only You..
And for that, I will rejoice. =)

Psalm 39:7 -But now Lord, what do I look for? My hope is in You.

possibilities

It was the Inter-Cohort games again today. We played our third captain ball match; this time we were up against Ausmat, a bunch of cool people who had really good players. They were kinda unbeatable and are obviously going to be the overall winners but we still had to at least try.

Apparently, some of the other cohorts lost quite badly to them so we had a few girls who offered to help us try to beat them in our match. 6 to a team; 3 girls, 3 guys. Ausmat had at least 6 guys, so they had lots of fresh legs. We had only 4 guys. But anyway, I don't think that was the matter. Can't remember the final score, but we did push them to the very end and ended up trailing them by only one point. Not bad and much better than expected. It was cool. =)

One thing I've learnt today is that it's so important to keep calm and cool no matter what happens or comes your way. Even if the world falls apart, keep your stance and trust Him.

I thank God for the week. Few events have been quite memorable.

it wasn't much, but I'm still glad. =).

recap

A recap of what's been going on for the past few days: Pre-U meeting on Tuesday: Managed to skip introduction, again. None of us from Arts were called out that day due to shortage of time. Doesn't matter really.

I'm grateful that the subjects I'm taking doesn't have as much work as subjects like Maths, Physics, Accounts etc. Not counting calculations in Econs and B.Studies, I really can say goodbye to Maths for life. What a relief! =P. Lessons have been alright, and I still haven't started getting down to my books. True, it still might be abit early, but I guess I gotta kick this procrastination and lazy attitude out of me ASAP.

Anyway, today was quite eventful, and definitely tiring. After CF, 10 of us went to Mid Valley. Some sat in the car, but the rest of us literally squeezed ourselves into the KTM. It's even worse than taking the LRT when it's packed. No place to even turn around. Had Carl's Jr. for lunch. Probably the most expensive meal I've indulged in ever since I came here. 20 bucks. But it was worth it. And I helped some of the guys finish their fries too. Haha. Lots of funny things happened. Wanted to do some plan change in Maxis centre but couldn't so I didn't bother anymore. Pretty much just hanged around the place till 5 something. Then, 6 of us wanted to take the KTM back to Sentral but it was delayed for 30 minutes. So we ended up walking all the way to other end and ran out of the mall when we say the bus. It's a good thing I don't know anyone in KL, cause of certain dumb things a few of us did. =D. That's pretty much it for now. Last day of Inter-Cohort games tomorrow. Need to sleep soon. Few pictures I took today:

The 4 posers. LOL. They thought they looked sexy but.....

Gay people. LOL.

Done for now! Nights.

obvious

Today marked the very end of our orientation by the Student Council and beloved seniors. Haha. To tell the truth, it's kinda sad, at least for me. Surprisingly I enjoyed the 7am sessions where we did all sorts of things. It was fun, and good exercise too =p. Also, it means that I will not and can't...................... But it's not all bad, cause I can still do it. HAHA. You're not supposed to understand this too. Anyway, after our IELTS class today, we had to gather at the basketball court. First we played this Mummy game with toilet paper and water balloons involved. And after that, it was 'war'. Water balloons were thrown by the seniors. Pails of water, water hose etc. It's really funny to see how happy the seniors were in wetting people. HAHAHHA. Some even went upstairs to pour water from above, but they were obviously spotted! And something happened too.. Which I can't say here. Thankfully, only Eric saw. =D

Pre-U meeting tomorrow. Last week, some of the people from my intake already introduced themselves. The rest of us are supposed to do it tomorrow in front of like 300+ people. We have to say our name, status, and the most embarassing/funny thing that ever happened to us. And yeah, someone from the crowd will be picked to rate the person on a scale of 1-10, and they have to rate the chosen person too. I'll be brutally honest no matter what. Hah.

I'm quite sleepy already, but I gotta finish start and complete research on Thomas Edison for Business Studies. Suffice to say, I really do enjoy B.Studies. I could and should attribute part of my interest to the lecturer. He's from Ipoh too, and his teaching style is definitely NOT boring. Gotta run now. Till then. =)

blah

Thank God for the great week I've had. =).

I'm back in Ipoh for two days. Will be going back tomorrow night.. And yeah, I deleted the post before the previous one cause I felt I revealed too much about everything. So I guess my posts will be slightly more discreet from now on..

It was ragging week for the past 5 days. Although some found it to be somewhat torturing, I found it fun. A recap of what happened: We had different dress codes for each day. Some were ridiculous, some were pretty easy to follow. Some of us were forfeited when we obviously didn't follow. But it was all cool.

Morning exercise, games and other stuff were what we went through. And I've established another image for myself already, just because I did something that no one saw coming. Even if I forget it, people still remember me for that. What to do?? LOL.

Besides that, we were given a list of nicknames of our 'seniors'. Out of 60, we need to get 40 signed.. Deadline is on Tuesday but I handed mine in on Thursday, I was the first .WHEE. HAHA.. Oh, and having a thick skin really helps when you're in college. =P

I've got alot more to say, but I'll save it for another post. And I'll update more often. Hah. Nights!

I really wish it didn't happen, but now that it has, I can only hope... and pray.

it's time

Psalm 33:4: For the word of the Lord holds true, and we can trust everything he does.

He is so faithful. I can't express how His faithfulness has been my comfort and what pulled me through times I felt so low, so down, so forlorn. If only we could understand Him more, our problems would seem so small and insignificant..

Orientation was alright today. Today was more to briefings on other stuff like Community Service, clubs, IELTS etc. Finished around 12plus, but only left college at 2. Lunch at KL Sentral, McD... Sad case. Hah. Got to know more people better today though. =).

I've been thinking bout my subjects and stuff like that. Future university admissions, how I'm gonna fare... Honestly, I have to admit that I've been worrying, just a little... But it wasn't until I remembered that these aren't things that will last. Someday, it will all come to an end. What matters most is Him..

Even though I've just said that, I do realize how important it is for me to do my best as well.. This isn't SPM. I won't say SPM was easy, God was extremely merciful for granting me results I did not deserve at all. But I think I've been taking it for granted for too long. With all that I've been given, I need to use it, for His glory. I can't imagine myself being a studious person after being so lazy for the past years in school. But I'm not gonna let that stop me from starting now. I really need to study consistently when class commences, which is tomorrow.. Discipline. Really need it. After all, it is possible, cause all things are possible with Him. =)

I can't, but You can. In every situation, when You are in control, I know I won't fall apart. My trust is in You.