of tv shows

To break out of the normal posts, here's a list of shows I used to watch. The main ones, at least.

1. Survivor. Watched this when I was 10 to 13. I really loved the series. I only had/have cable TV so ever since NTV7 aired this series, I tuned in every week. I started watching from the third season, Survivor: Africa (who's winner, Ethan, IMO is the most deserving) till the seventh season, Pearl Islands and a little bit of the eight which was special; All-Stars which had contestants from previous seasons. Survivor started getting boring ie; everything was the same so I stopped watching.

2. Sesame Street. My favourite children's programme. I still think it's the best though I don't watch it anymore... Hah. I owe learning my ABC's to the show.. And Ernie's Rubber Ducky song never leaves me. Along with Elmo's annoyingly cute voice. Those two are my favourite characters. 

3. Barney. The famous purple dinosaur. Wasn't my favourite but I grew up watching it.

4. The Donut Man.

Life without Jesus, is like a donut, like a donut.. - There's a hole in the middle of your heart. Love the song!

5. Many Cantonese dramas. I am not joking. I'm still surprised and abit disappointed that my command of the dialect is still poor; after watching countless of dramas, and I started at the age of 7. But at least I can speak a few lines? Lol. I clearly remember the first I watched was called.. "The Good Old Days".

I loved the drama. Can't really remember the plot, only vague parts. I had a string of favourites as well but I can't really recall right now. 

Now, to my All-time favourite TV Shows. Ones I wouldn't mind re-watching. From the bottom to the top...

6. Winter Sonata. For those who don't know, this was the first Korean drama to be aired on Cable TV (I think it came out in 2003) and since then, the Korean drama fever begun.. I still think this is one the best of its kind. I'm not really a K-drama addict; I've only watched round 10 dramas at most to date.. 

5. Boys Over Flowers - Korean Version. I'm not head over heels this drama. I don't go, "he's so hot" when I watch the show though there are not bad looking actors; some abit too gay but let's ignore that. But it's quite amusing to watch and the typical guy meet girl story takes a few turns and makes it interesting. 

4. American Idol. I know this should be in a whole different category because it's a reality series after all. I've watched since season 3 (2004) till now.. Barely watched Season 6 and 8, which had Jordin and Kris as winners respectively.. And as mentioned before, nothing beats Season 7; Davids and Jason.. Somehow, this show doesn't get boring and I still like it... But I think things will change once Simon's gone, maybe I'll move on to The X-Factor as well? Haha. 

3. Sana'y Wala Nang Wakas. I hear a "What??" Aka Timeless.

It's a show from the Philippines. Don't look down on it just because it's from there. It's one of the best dramas ever made; okay I guess I'm biased but seriously! It has a love triangle, not surprising. And the ending even had the producers coming up with a poll for which guy people wanted the girl to end up with. Cause they were so afraid there was gonna be a big upheaval if they don't give people what they want. The result? They made two different endings and aired different ones in different countries. Lol. I want to watch it again but there are 10 DVD box sets; really costly. Can't watch online cause no one's uploaded it and it can't even be downloaded. Sigh. I was literally in love with the show. Haha.

2. Fantaghiro aka The Cave of the Golden Rose. series.

It's an Italian movie made for TV that was produced in the year I was born. And it was aired rather frequently on TV2 when I was a kid. Probably when I was 7/8? There's up to 6 movies and I only have very vague memories of it. C'mon, it's so long ago... Two years ago, TV1 aired the first movie once but didn't show the last few minutes of the show; so potong stim! And it's nearly impossible to even get it on DVD. I managed to download the first movie though and I'm so happy. Hope I can get the others too. Who heard/watched the show before?? Tell me! :D

1. Glee.

I have to admit it's at first place cause it's the most recently watched on and is a series going on right now. Then again, the top 3 are probably levelled cause it's obviously too different to be compared. And all are just as nice. :). Back to why I'm a Glee-k. Well, I think the series creators are admirable cause it's a genius idea to come up with such a TV show after things like HSM... And it's definitely different. Also, the episode writers are really good cause most of the songs on the episodes goes well with the plot. The covers are amazingly nice too! And I love the characters.. Been re-watching previous episodes alot but once again, I'm not crazy about it. 

Till then. :)

home

Back home for a few weeks till my exams begin. So there's exactly 3 weeks left till my first paper. I'm the only one from my batch who's 1st paper starts the latest; I may even be the only one from all the intakes.. Cause of my unique subject combination. Hah. Anyway, my friends are initially envious when I tell them it only starts on the 7th but when I tell them I'm ending on the 30th, they'll be Oh... not so good then. I have no real holiday!!! 3rd semester's already starting on 1st July. Well, I guess I'll take these weeks as my break then but that's not a good thing cause I'll end up finding every excuse not to study....

Enough about that, it feels great to be home. And He's amazed me so much cause I guess I'm okay already? It hasn't gone yet, but I know it'll be alright. Praise God. :)

That's it for now.. God bless y'all. And all the best to all those sitting for exams. Be it mid-year.. or A-Levels.. I always believe and still do, that the secret to success comes from putting Him first. Cause without Him, we would be nothing. And success is not everything, wait, it's nothing in comparison to His greatness. These worldly pursuits, will fade in time. His never will.

ever faithful

Thank You Lord, for the opportunities You've given me

And being ever so faithful, and for all the wonderful plans You have in store for me. 

Honestly, things are still blurry, I still can't seem to see what's ahead and part of me's afraid...

But I am holding on to Him. I know I keep saying that, but that's what I'm doing - it's not something I do once and for all, but it's what I have to do everyday.

Anyway, today was the last day of college for this semester. Not really last for me cause I still have a few extra classes next week. But I'll be heading back home next Friday till my exams begin. 

Dear friends, I give you the liberty to scold and remind me to study and stop lazing around. Cause I have a bad feeling about what's gonna happen. I don't have enough motivation or willpower to study so I'll be needing lots of help!

Will be posting a post on Semester Two of college another time. Till then. :)

Your love will never fail. 

smile

There's a pain that sleeps inside, it sleeps with just one eye and awakens the moment that you leave.

Now I don't know what to be without you around.

Smile tho' your heart is aching, Smile even though it's breaking.. 

It's hard to force a smile when I'm aching inside, but I'll try... And I'll give myself a break, and come clean. It's time to be honest with myself. I need time.

I really thought I had more time; at least another 2 days but today he told me it was his last. I wasn't really prepared but what else can I do now?

I dreaded this day, cause it's not gonna be the same anymore. No matter how hard I try to convince myself, I know it won't. Memories are the only thing I have. At least I know no one can take them away..

I've learnt so much in the past 8 months. Again, lessons of love, trust and hope. That only God will never fail me, and I will find no fulfillment in any relationships beside the one I have with Him. I knew it all along, yet I often questioned.. Sometimes I felt as if it wasn't fair; well, life never is. 

Still, I thank God for everything. It's through these times, that character is formed; that faith is tested; that trust is at its highest level..

Sometimes, love is best when it's silent. It doesn't make it any lesser, it just proves you're capable of loving just the same. Even when they don't know it. 

But I honestly rather hurt than feel nothing at all. Sometimes I feel so broken inside yet I feel numb and that's when I know that something's just not right and it scares me.

He has always been there for me, always held me. Always healed me. Lord, You would do it again.. I know You will.

Psalm 27:14
Wait for the LORD; Be strong, and let your heart take courage; Yes, wait for the LORD

I will wait..

moving

I'm gonna move to this place soon! :D

For those of you who don't know, I've been staying at my aunt's place in SS5, Kelana Jaya since I came to KL in July. Aunt used to drop and pick me from the LRT station but toward the end of last semester till now, she doesn't anymore. So I take the bus and then LRT to KL Sentral and it's a 10 minute walk to college from there. Travelling's quite a hassle sometimes, but gotten used to it.

I guess its high time to move out now. No personal reasons. But to be honest, I guess the stress that's come from being home alone with the dogs and all the sleepless nights is just telling me it's time to go someplace else. Time to be really independent now. 

So, I'll be staying at Pelangi Utama, 15 minutes walk away from 1Utama. Sam's friend stays there and her parents bought it, she's really nice for letting me stay there. Said I didn't need to pay rent but of course it isn't nice like that so my mum said we'll pay a fixed price to at least cover the electricity and stuff. It's still cheap whatever it is, compared to renting a room anywhere else. College accommodation is 700 for a single room a month! 550 for triple sharing I think... Really expensive. The only drawback here is that transport will be even more troublesome. I'll have to walk much more and take the bus instead, and journey times will be longer. But I guess it'll be worth it. There's the awesome pool and gym (not that I'm gonna use it). Hah. I've seen the place once, looks really comfy. Thank God for such a blessing. 

Apart from that, I guess things have been alright. Mood swings here and there but I've learnt so much and I'm grateful for all that's happened. I will never understand, I don't have to. My trial results are okay, seeing that I didn't really put any effort into it, last minute studying again, I guess it's not so bad. Again, it's all because of His mercy and grace. I must put effort, keep telling myself that and it makes me wonder when I will actually study hard. 

2nd Leg semi's later, fingers crossed. Hope to see another comeback! Please, please, please! And the Chelsea game's on Sunday. Seeing that the chances of getting 4th place is only like 5% or so, I rather we lose, and hope Chelsea gets the title. Anything but Manure!! My dislike for them is extremely justified, many would agree. Then again, how ironic is it that the Scum is depending on Liv to win the game so they can win the title? It's as if their fate is in the hands of the enemy? Oh, and I can imagine what will happen. MU fans watching the game, cheering Liverpool on, and if they win and if MU eventually wins the title; they'll turn to us and say; HAHA, Liverpool s*cks. How typical.

Sleepover in college's tomorrow. :). It's been a tradition of the CF committee to have sleepovers for discussions. When I was in the previous committee we had 2 sleepovers; one for semester planning and the other for easter. This time, we were so close to not having one cause of certain things. May God be with us through everything. 

CF's premiering Come What May tomorrow; do come!! 

Till then.

I know it'll be okay, You promised me. I shall not settle for less, You only want the best for me.

the word

You said You would never leave me nor forsake me.

Joshua 1:5 - I will never leave you nor forsake you.

You said You will hold me with Your right hand.

Isaiah 41:10 - So do not fear, for I am with you; 
do not be dismayed, for I am your God.
I will strengthen you and help you;
I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

You said that You are my strength, and will ever be.

Psalm 28:8 The LORD is the strength of his people, 
a fortress of salvation for his anointed one.

Psalm 13:5-6 - But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me.

Indeed, He has, and will continue to be.

Faith, is taking God at His word, trusting that every word is true; that He will accomplish whatever He says He will... Do we have this kind of faith? 

The beauty of His word, cannot be described. It is more than enough. A source of encouragement, a source of strength. We are refreshed by His word, renewed and transformed.. It's not enough to know it, got to live and believe it.

Just a reminder. God bless. :).

HE IS FAITHFUL.

the greatest love of all

I can't believe that I could be so stupid.

To think that perhaps it would happen.

Deep inside I knew there was something wrong about it

It just couldn't be true.

So much for wishing, hoping.

Cause right now, reality's slamming itself in front of me yet again.

How many times do I need to go through this?

It just won't be. It can't.

There's nothing wrong with me.

It's just the way things are.

I wish I didn't see it; I wouldn't have thought about it.

I'm confused. 

I thought I accepted it already;

Why then, does it still hurt?

I'm sorry Lord, for feeling like this again. I trust You with my future, my dreams, my desires. I know that all things just brings me back to You. In this world, only You will ever satisfy. I will hold on, though I feel as if I've fallen so far, I'm slipping away. But You pull me up again, back into Your loving arms. I've never known anyone who could love me so much, and no one ever will measure of to You. 

The greatest love of all is here.