on and on

Psychology 2 was yesterday; it was not a very hard paper though there were tricky questions but who knows how they'll award marks.. It was madness, they asked to draw and Anomaly (outlier) and it's not even in the syllabus... I'm not a Maths student, had no idea what that was... 

Well, at least there's only 1 more paper to go on the 30th this month. Back in Ipoh for two weeks now... 

When dad asked me how's exams; I said I've no comment. He was afraid that I passed up blank papers or something but I said it wasn't that I couldn't do at all but the outcome is just something I can't foresee. SPM or even high school exams (only in Malaysia), you do a paper and you know if you're done for or not. Cause you either remember the facts or you don't. A-Levels? No way. Maybe Science papers are predictable but definitely not Arts. 

You remember the whole textbook, you can still fail. You write till your arms ache leaving no empty spaces, you can still fail. You think you answered correctly, the results may prove you wrong. Some subjects are less scary but still. What exactly do they want then? Who knows... So, depend on His strength, do your best and leave the rest to Him. What else is there to do?

Enough about exams. I'm not gonna have any To-Do lists during the break anymore, I always fail keeping it. But if there's anything I really need to do, I need to read... Got to finish Captain Correlli's Mandolin and Tess of the D'Urbervilles by next sem; it's what we're doing for Unit 3. And find out what topic and books I want to do for coursework. The problem is when they say you can do 'anything'. I guess sometimes, restrictions are good. You don't need to think so much about what to do.

You're my peace, my comfort. 

journey

My eyes are wet from crying. 

I just watched the season finale of Glee; Journey. And it was very emotional. A good way to end the season though.

There were so many moments I loved about the episode. 

The title itself is really appropriate. New Directions' numbers were all from Journey and the episode taught about journeys too.

I like how they started the show with "Don't Stop Believing" and closed it with the song as well. 

Vocal Adrenaline's Bohemian Rhapsody was juxtaposed with Quinn's delivery. Couldn't be better.

And Sue Sylvester is her usual self; trying to bring down the club but you'll be surprised to know what she does in the end. 

I wished there were more Rachel and Finn moments, but those that were there were sweet to say the least. :)

To Sir With Love being sung after all that happened just added more meaning and emotion.

Faithfully was awesome. 



Everything else was too. 

To sum up, the best thing I learned from the episode was that life is a journey. To put it my own words; we're always so worried about what happens when we get there and that seems to be our only concern; but what's more important is the getting there. To make the most out of what we have, to go on the 'ride of our lives'. 

Now, the long wait till September... 

What am I even doing here; I have a paper tomorrow...

To quote Aaron Yee; "I think Glee's the reason I might do badly in my exams." Hope not. :P

-out-

3...

World Cup's in 3 days... 3!!!!!!!!!!! 

My first World Cup was 1998; so I guess it was when I was 7 that I officially started watching football and later became an avid fan of it. 

Rooting for Spain, England, Germany, Holland and Argentina. Why so many you ask? Cause the more you support, the higher the chances are one will win. 

I remember supporting Spain, Germany and Holland (poor England didn't even qualify) for Euro 2008 and the first two teams ended up in the final; I didn't really mind who would win..

And I promise I won't break any more things this World Cup. I'll make sure of it. For those who don't know what I'm talking about, never mind. :D

exam scare

Exams finally begun yesterday, after a pretty long wait. Not that I was eager cause I was prepared, wasn't very; but I just wanted to to start so it can end.. But by the time it does, it's sem 3 already. Gasp...

Anyway, Religious Studies was more or less predicted and it left me wondering how I'll fare; cause I'm not sure how they'll mark it; it could be extreme... And as for Economics, I have to say I underestimated the paper cause the questions were tricky and time was another factor.

Today, I had English Literature, again. Retook the unit. Unseen part was so-so, Prose was not bad, cause the question that came out was what we did for trials last year but the worst was yet to come. Honestly, the moment I saw the two questions for Poetry, I was scared. I wasn't prepared for either one. Really unexpected. So I prayed and He, always so faithful, was by my side, giving me peace that I would not give up.... I just tried to write whatever I could..

This was one of the rare times where I feel somewhat depressed after doing a paper; can't recall how long it's been... But after awhile, I snapped out of it and felt like slapping myself....

What is THIS???? One day, I'll look back and see how futile this is; see that it's not gonna mean anything much in years to come.. And I guess if I've tried my best, even if I didn't, there's just no point fretting or regretting... Leaving it all to Him. The rest of the papers too. 2 more Psychology Units. 

He is ever faithful. 

trust in you

"Why is it that the nearer it is to exams, I get

lazier and lazier to do what I should be doing,

more unmotivated to even pick up a book

less worried about the consequences of my laziness

less fearful about the outcome

The thing is, I know what I should be doing, but I'm not doing it. After this weekend, I have to REALLY get down to it. Or else, it's OVER. Not really. LOL. But somewhat close. GAHHH."

The above was a post I wrote back in 2008 in my Xanga
Previous blog for those who don't know.. Wrote it 2 weeks before SPM cause that was exactly how I felt...

Looks like I'm feeling the same again. Except for the fact that now, the weekend is here. Nervous much? I don't know. I'm not prepared. But what can I do now. I've said it before and I'll say it again. His grace is all I rely on. His strength, His mercy. Only He can help me now. I guess there's nothing much else I can do except give my best shot.

I've learned that worry is a sign of lack of trust. Cause if you fully trust someone, there should be no doubt, no fear. No matter what the circumstance, He is bigger. That truth alone should guide us through to battle our worries and replace it with His peace that is already there for us to claim. 

What is this in the light of You?

And I know I can trust You at all times. Cause the one who is higher stands by my side. :)

glee numbers

One of the reasons I love Glee is due to their awesome songs (covers, rather). I've barely heard most of the songs they cover and some are effectively stuck in my mind. Some songs that originally sound old and stuff are given a fresh vibe.

Firstly, for those who haven't heard of Glee, you've been living under a rock. And for those who haven't watched it, let me just clear a misconception you might have. It is NOT like HSM, not at all. The songs come in naturally; eg. Glee club assignments, characters practicing songs that express how they feel. And even if you might hate the show, it's hard to hate the songs..

I've decided to come up with a list of my top 11 favourite Glee numbers. Why 11 and not 10 you ask; it's too close to call. The show's finale is to be aired next week, and to date there's got to be at least 70plus songs to choose from. This is tough. The words in brackets are the episodes the songs are in, for those Gleeks out there who want to watch it again. I thought of putting links to the song, but I guess you can just do that if you're interested to listen.

11. Lean On Me (Ballad)

10. Don't Rain On My Parade (Sectionals)

9. Defying Gravity (Wheels)

8. Smile [Charlie Chaplin version] (Mattress)

7. I Dreamed A Dream (Dream On)

6. You Can't Always Get What You Want (Sectionals)

5. Run Joey Run (Bad Reputation)

4. Hello Goodbye (Hell-O)

3. Total Eclipse Of The Heart (Bad Reputation)

2. Don't Stop Believing (Pilot & Season Finale/Regionals)

1. Somebody To Love (The Rhodes Not Taken)

Don't ask me why I'm doing this. I know time is running short, 4 more days till exam start. Haha. I guess I need a break too. :D

And, for those Gleeks out there, what are your favourite numbers? For others, you might not watch, but you simply must hear the covers. Till then!

predictable

I'm a failure joke. I knew it!! I couldn't keep it up. But wait, it's not exactly my fault. I'm referring to my previous post where I was so enthusiastic about keeping a productive daily routine. But I have my reasons...

Thursday, had a dinner with family at a seafood restaurant. Pics with bro. The food was really good! Did abit of reading when I got back. Not totally wasted I guess.

Friday.. I went to Pangkor in the morning. Had a relaxing and great time. Wasn't just a normal holiday, but we went cause it was my cousin's 'bersanding' ceremony today. His mum married a Malay so that explains it. Overall the trip was good and perhaps the highlights were the ceremony today and our 'tour' yesterday. So my family stayed in a resort that they booked for us. We went over to their resort, and spend some time there and since dinner wasn't till very late, we decided to go out on our how. In Pangkor, there're pink vans as taxis.. The bride's dad actually owns that resort, one of the budget ones, so they have their own van.. And our 'taxi' driver for the night was... my dad. Lol. It was interesting, all of us in the van going round the island looking for a place to eat and ended up at Daddy's Cafe which had very good food. Came back this evening.

I watched a movie on Star Movies last night on Astro in the resort, Wedding Daze.. It's such a dumb show. The plot is dumb, the actress's character is annoying. I can't think what I actually liked about it. I was bored.

Anyway, as much as I'm worried about how little time I have left and I'm far from ready... Just relying on His strength now. :)

I still remember.