birthdays

Went to school again yesterday; for the morning session CF. I shared about what I've been learning these past few years, which is Surrender. Though the response wasn't as good if compared to the previous day, I'm not really discouraged cause I believe that they've gained something from Him in some way or another.. And also, I could feel His presence and was touched by Him myself. Can't describe the joy He brings me.

It was my dad's birthday today. Bro and me baked brownies. We wanted to make chocolate chip cookies like ages ago, and we thought it would be good timing to do it on my dad's b'day. Made brownies instead cause there was a recipe that used the baking chocolate we bought. To our surprise, it turned out to be good. And my dad even said it was his best birthday cake. Haha. Dinner was at Citrus. Haven't been there even though the shop's been opened for more than a year already and it's near to my place. Food was good of course.

amazing love

Had quite an eventful day compared to most of the days spent at home (not that I don't enjoy it). Followed my cousin to school in the morning, went to Parade first to have my breakfast. I must mention that I've not been eating breakfast regularly for quite some time. It's lunch time when I wake up. Anyway, walked over to school for the afternoon session CF. Thank God for His presence and some hearts were touched by His love.. I was on the verge of tearing too.

Your love is so pure Your love so divine
Your love transforms my soul my mind
Your love has the power to bring new hope
Amazing love
Amazing love

Went to Jusco later in the afternoon with Rachel to watch Hannah Montana: The Movie... After hearing about it from a few people, I wanted to watch it so badly. But it seemed like the people I asked to watch it with me already watched it so I kinda left it aside. Just yesterday, I asked Rach if she watched it yet and thankfully she said no. Haha. Best to watch with a close friend anyway. Oh ya, I chose today cause it was Ladies' day and since the movie's been out for some time, I was pretty sure the cinema would be quite empty. We were led to Cinema 6 (small one) and lo and behold, there were only 2 ladies there.. After we sat, 1 guy and 2 ladies came in.. Miserable 6 of us in the cinema. But honestly, we were glad that there were only so few people. Hah. The movie was pretty good, at least it was for me. Worth watching.

And just yesterday I bought the exact same ramen I was given by the Koreans in the international camp. Thanks to Simon for telling me bout it two months ago. There was no need for supper today, but I ate the ramen anyway. More so, I was eating it for the sake of the memories it brought me. Such great ones. =). And I had forgotten how hot it was till I ate it again. Real hot stuff. Anyway, I'll stop here for now. Going back to school again tomorrow, its the morning session CF instead. Praying for Him to touch hearts, yet again.

You alone deserve all glory. You alone deserve all praise.

Emotions, Regained.

After all this time, I never thought we'd be here

Will be moving to KL in a week. Honestly, I'm not really excited as I should be. Of course, I do wonder what lies ahead of me.. But then again, leaving our comfort zones isn't always a comforting thing to know.

Learnt alot of things these past few days. The reality of Him in my life is just so amazing that I cannot put it into words.. Needless to say, He's all I need. Earthly pursuits are so small compared to the pursuit of Him... Yet we all are victims of this choice and always find ourselves torn between what's more important...

When my love for you was blind real, but I couldn't make you see it

I don't believe it when they say 'once bitten, twice shy'. There are some things in life you can't afford to live by that saying; it'll just worsen things.. If you used to read my Xanga posts, you would have noticed that there were times where you had to read between the lines to actually get what I tried to convey. Sorry to say, you might just have to do that again. Serene, she's back... As in that Serene... As in that serene whom you don't really know what more understand.. Don't worry peeps, I'm still me. It's just that I can't believe that this is actually happening again. It feels weird you know, to regain what you've lost after 6 months. That's it for now. God bless. =)

That I loved you more than you'll ever know, a part of me died hurt when I let you go

Just A Little

Warning: This post is not meant to be understood fully. You do not have to read any further if you don't wish to be in the dark.

As I was browsing through my past year papers, I found this written after finishing my History mid-year paper last year:
(part of it)
"I've accepted the fact and obvious truth.. but it's not gonna hinder me, cause love is not about receiving but giving."

I laughed it off... Only to realize what those words truly meant to me at that period of time.

If there's one thing we can't understand about ourselves, it's the heart.

If there's one thing I don't understand about myself, it's the reason why nothing has changed even after everything happened.

I was surprised that instead of feeling angry and dejected, I was feeling the hurt that you were going through. And I only wished that I could erase all of it, which is something only He can do.

These past months, I thought that I didn't care anymore. I thought that all I went through were what I brought upon myself. That all along, what I felt wasn't real.

But it was just a few days ago when I realized that I've been denying it all along. I've judged you based on your faults, and it can't get any worse than that.

Psalm 147:3 - He heals the brokenhearted and binds up their wounds.

Because of His everlasting, complete and perfect love, I was healed. I was restored. I was renewed. And now, what surprises me the most, is that even though I find myself in the same place I've been for the past 3 years, things are somehow different.

If they were to know the truth, I would be labeled as a fool. I would be said to be stupid. But it's something I can't deny no matter how hard I try to. I once told you that no matter what happens, I'm still gonna be there, and that's a promise I'm going to keep.

I smile, when it’s hard
Even though I’m alone, I’m happy
Though I have to watch you from far away
And you don’t walk towards me one step
Could you know, this heart of mine?

I want to fall in love with You

Was browsing through blog layouts and I came across this. It's based on a song: Jars of Clay - Love Song For A Savior. This was one of my favorites and was written in 1995. Pretty long ago eh?

It's a great song, not really for worship, but it still means alot.

Part of the song:

'He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray,

I want to fall in love with You

It seems too easy to call you "Savior",
Not close enough to call you "God"
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
to show my devotion

My heart beats for You'

Spent few hours editing the html codes to my preference. Quite tricky. But there's this great feeling you get when you meddle with the codes and it turns out to be the way you want. Haha. Nothing much else to say. So, till then.

I'm running out of titles...

I'm currently at my uncle's place in KL. Came down yesterday and will be going back tomorrow.. Main purpose for this trip was to go to college and pay up the fees for the 1st semester so I can get the receipt and college letter for my NS postponement..

NS starts next Tuesday and I haven't even received the package from them. A friend of mine received his 3 weeks ago already and yet I've got nothing. I thought I was real late in doing my application to postpone, but I recently found out that I can't do it without the package cause it contains important information I need to fill in as well... I just hope I don't get into trouble, but then again, the package isn't even with me, what am I supposed to do? Honestly, I really do want to go for it especially since the camp I got is in Langkawi.. But if I do, I can only go for two weeks which won't even be enough to get a cert.. So might as well spend time here.

Anyway, this KL trip has been quite alright. Though I'm not liking this place any better. Too much pollution. Traffic jams, congested areas, etc. Someone once said that Ipoh is like a retirement place. It's just nice; not too busy, not too quiet. And the food..................

Things are pretty much settled here already, my room in my aunt's place and stuff.. And God has shown even more of His goodness time and again. His goodness will never end. And I guess I shall stop here for now.. God bless. =)

At Last

Went to Lost World on Thursday with the ISCF bunch... Had a great time. =). Even though there's much to say about it, I'll skip the details. The only thing I'd say is that we've probably left the impression of being lame/noisy/fun/lively/crazy people. But who cares...

Few days ago, I was just telling my cousin how fast this year has passed; it's June already. She said last year passed much faster, which is true somehow.. This year seems to be pretty weird for me. It's like alot has happened, yet nothing has happened.. (you're not supposed to get this). It feels as if I'm living a different life. Since I stayed at home most of the time, I had time to think through past events. These thoughts led me to make an important decision which I did. I feel relieved now. =).

Make your petition deep, O heart of mine,
Your God can do much more
Than you can ask;
Launch out on the Divine,
Draw from His love-filled store.
Trust Him with everything;
Begin today,
And find the joy that comes
When Jesus has His way!