Orientation Camp for the Arts and Science Alpha 1001 was great!! I went as a facilitator this time and I daresay it was better than the camp for my batch and March. Night trekking wasn't so long; started at 10plus and ended before 12. Of course; the route was a shorter and less challenging one. But it was still fun.
Not that the activities differed much from what we did last year; but I think the approach made all the difference. The whole atmosphere was pretty serious last year; and the 2nd night program was a nightmare for most people. Many went off with black faces; angry and dissatisfied with what took place. So this year; we tried to make it a fun night instead of one that would turn sour.. And thankfully; it turned out well. The new batch has really great spirits and many of them enjoyed the camp. It was pretty relaxing for us helpers during camp since we didn't need to attend No Apologies again; we had some free time. Slept in the Pavilion instead of tents. A great relief since there was so much space to just dump my stuff.
The highlight would be the stream trotting; last year I wore shoes and ended up taking them off; so I wore slippers this time around. Many asked isn't it painful and my reply was it was like reflexology. Escaped with a few scratches here and there but am alright. It started raining heavily on our way back to the campsite; was cold but fun; another experience I won't forget..
Thank God for his mercy and grace; safe journeys; safe camp and stuff.. Hopefully no one gets sick after camp this time. Last year's camp aftermath was bad enough.
I'm glad; really am.. It's been quite awhile since I've been feeling like this.. There are still things left unsettled; questions that haven't been answered.. But I've realized I don't always need to know the answers to life's questions. I just need to know He's always here with me. And it cannot get any better than that..
Thank you. I feel like myself once again. And I'm glad it's come this far. I can smile; once again..
Sunday, January 31, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
maybe they were right
Too fast; it happened too fast. I feel foolish sometimes. I don't think I want to make any more claims that have always seemed to be proven otherwise. I say it won't; and it turns out to be true.
I'm smiling now. But what lies behind the smile is uncertainty, fear and confusion. Though I won't deny the fact that I am happy, indeed. Despite having these feelings I can't fight I know He's got it under control. :)
Went to Kinokuniya with Marian after Lit class today. Finished at 1.30; such a great feeling... Got Hamlet for Lit; we're doing coursework on drama this semester. Saw a book I've been searching for; but will only get it next time. Elisabeth Eliot remains to be one of my favourite Christian authors. Her books have been an inspiration.
Going for orientation camp tomorrow till Sunday as a facilitator. Just hope there'll be no more jungle walk till 4 am or anything like that. Hah. Hope that no one falls sick after camp this time. Once was bad enough. I was spared. And next Monday's a holiday. =D.
This is all for now...
Your grace is enough.
I'm smiling now. But what lies behind the smile is uncertainty, fear and confusion. Though I won't deny the fact that I am happy, indeed. Despite having these feelings I can't fight I know He's got it under control. :)
Went to Kinokuniya with Marian after Lit class today. Finished at 1.30; such a great feeling... Got Hamlet for Lit; we're doing coursework on drama this semester. Saw a book I've been searching for; but will only get it next time. Elisabeth Eliot remains to be one of my favourite Christian authors. Her books have been an inspiration.
Going for orientation camp tomorrow till Sunday as a facilitator. Just hope there'll be no more jungle walk till 4 am or anything like that. Hah. Hope that no one falls sick after camp this time. Once was bad enough. I was spared. And next Monday's a holiday. =D.
This is all for now...
Your grace is enough.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
subjects
Last year; before college begun I wanted to take up Religious Studies. But because there wasn't enough people to start a class; there was no class. Switched to another subject instead.
For the past few months I was thinking if I should take it should there be a class for the new January batch this year. But that would mean I'd have to drop a subject and it'd be quite a waste cause I've been through classes for a semester. College only allows 4 subjects max and I already have 4.
Then few weeks back, I heard that someone appealed for a class cause he was the only one who wanted to take it too. And after much discussion with the college authorities, they agreed to open a class though there were only two students. When I heard about it; I thought over it again. And after much discussion with my dad and brother, I told them I really wanted to take it. There were some complications but today I've finally dropped Business Studies to take up R.S. Even though Business is interesting and is one of my stronger subjects I have to choose one or the other.
Now there's a problem with the time-table. The new one just came out today and now they probably have to amend it again so they can slot the classes in. If they can't; then some classes would have to be after college hours. But that's okay with me.
God is truly amazing. I'm glad somehow that this is working out.
On the other hand; some things are getting pretty confusing; so I'm trying not to think so much. Needless to say, I'm happy. And grateful for everything.
For the past few months I was thinking if I should take it should there be a class for the new January batch this year. But that would mean I'd have to drop a subject and it'd be quite a waste cause I've been through classes for a semester. College only allows 4 subjects max and I already have 4.
Then few weeks back, I heard that someone appealed for a class cause he was the only one who wanted to take it too. And after much discussion with the college authorities, they agreed to open a class though there were only two students. When I heard about it; I thought over it again. And after much discussion with my dad and brother, I told them I really wanted to take it. There were some complications but today I've finally dropped Business Studies to take up R.S. Even though Business is interesting and is one of my stronger subjects I have to choose one or the other.
Now there's a problem with the time-table. The new one just came out today and now they probably have to amend it again so they can slot the classes in. If they can't; then some classes would have to be after college hours. But that's okay with me.
God is truly amazing. I'm glad somehow that this is working out.
On the other hand; some things are getting pretty confusing; so I'm trying not to think so much. Needless to say, I'm happy. And grateful for everything.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
the first
The end of the first and the beginning of another.
Second semester starts tomorrow.
Looking back; I wasn't anticipating college. I didn't expect much; just wished to get it over and done with. There were some prejudices. And mainly it was because I wasn't even supposed to go there and I honestly didn't really want to. The only reason why I went along with it was cause of certain reasons which cannot be mentioned. Some of you would know.
As absurd as the reasons may be; I'm a hundred percent sure that it was only because of those things that I changed my mind about Singapore. God certainly works in mysterious ways; it's hilarious at times.
Sure enough; I made good friends on the first day itself; and as time went by; friendships grew; deeper friendships were formed. There were the tough times. Ones I did not expect. But I thank God for certain close friends who stood by me and gave me all the support I needed.
I didn't really dread going to college; not like what I thought it would be. Of course there were days I just felt so tired of the long hours but strength never ran out; cause He was always there to supply..
Also, involvement in the CF has taught me lots of things.
I have to admit that I'm not really looking forward to the coming semester. A rather short one I would say. Which means it would be stressful. But 'stress' was never in my dictionary and that's one thing I hope won't change.
But what keeps me going is Him. I'm anticipating what lies ahead of me; what He has for me. Every year seems to have taught me important lessons and this year; I'm hoping for more.. Truly; life is meaningless without Him. All of our pursuits are worthless. But a life chasing after God is one we should aim for.. After all; where would we be without Him?
Second semester starts tomorrow.
Looking back; I wasn't anticipating college. I didn't expect much; just wished to get it over and done with. There were some prejudices. And mainly it was because I wasn't even supposed to go there and I honestly didn't really want to. The only reason why I went along with it was cause of certain reasons which cannot be mentioned. Some of you would know.
As absurd as the reasons may be; I'm a hundred percent sure that it was only because of those things that I changed my mind about Singapore. God certainly works in mysterious ways; it's hilarious at times.
Sure enough; I made good friends on the first day itself; and as time went by; friendships grew; deeper friendships were formed. There were the tough times. Ones I did not expect. But I thank God for certain close friends who stood by me and gave me all the support I needed.
I didn't really dread going to college; not like what I thought it would be. Of course there were days I just felt so tired of the long hours but strength never ran out; cause He was always there to supply..
Also, involvement in the CF has taught me lots of things.
I have to admit that I'm not really looking forward to the coming semester. A rather short one I would say. Which means it would be stressful. But 'stress' was never in my dictionary and that's one thing I hope won't change.
But what keeps me going is Him. I'm anticipating what lies ahead of me; what He has for me. Every year seems to have taught me important lessons and this year; I'm hoping for more.. Truly; life is meaningless without Him. All of our pursuits are worthless. But a life chasing after God is one we should aim for.. After all; where would we be without Him?
Friday, January 22, 2010
change
Confusion, illusions
Still I don’t know which way to go
There are things I'm beginning to see now. Things I didn't want to accept; but I finally am able to. You can't change anyone. Only He can.... I love one of the versions of the Serenity Prayer and it goes like this:
Still I don’t know which way to go
There are things I'm beginning to see now. Things I didn't want to accept; but I finally am able to. You can't change anyone. Only He can.... I love one of the versions of the Serenity Prayer and it goes like this:
Lord, grant me the serenity to accept the people I cannot change,
The courage to change the ones I can;
And the wisdom to know that it's me.
How true is that? Too often we think we can change people. We talk about how this person is like this and that and how we want to change them. But we fail to see that it's not in our power to do so. We can only pray that He would change them. But way before we do that, we need to realize we have to change too. Whether big or small, all of us could surely do with a change for the better..
Haven't been doing much at home. Had a cook-out at Sue Li's house on Wednesday with 8 other people. It was alright. Today was interesting though; went out with Jane and Phil to check some stuff out. Drove to town and such; it was the furthest I've driven to and on the way back it started raining heavily and it was getting dark. A new experience; a first and according to Phil, I leveled up. Lol. Oh and Conty; you'd be glad to know I went pass 60 =P. Just grateful and thank God nothing bad happened...
We had tea in a place called DeLight Cafe; beside Old Town Kopitiam (the two-storey branch in Greentown). The drinks there are pretty nice; ice-blended ones especially. Was sick of Old Town since going back to college means alot of Old Town visits. And I always prefer the REAL old town white coffee; so much better.
2 more days.
Even if it hurts; I won't know it.
The courage to change the ones I can;
And the wisdom to know that it's me.
How true is that? Too often we think we can change people. We talk about how this person is like this and that and how we want to change them. But we fail to see that it's not in our power to do so. We can only pray that He would change them. But way before we do that, we need to realize we have to change too. Whether big or small, all of us could surely do with a change for the better..
Haven't been doing much at home. Had a cook-out at Sue Li's house on Wednesday with 8 other people. It was alright. Today was interesting though; went out with Jane and Phil to check some stuff out. Drove to town and such; it was the furthest I've driven to and on the way back it started raining heavily and it was getting dark. A new experience; a first and according to Phil, I leveled up. Lol. Oh and Conty; you'd be glad to know I went pass 60 =P. Just grateful and thank God nothing bad happened...
We had tea in a place called DeLight Cafe; beside Old Town Kopitiam (the two-storey branch in Greentown). The drinks there are pretty nice; ice-blended ones especially. Was sick of Old Town since going back to college means alot of Old Town visits. And I always prefer the REAL old town white coffee; so much better.
2 more days.
Even if it hurts; I won't know it.
Monday, January 18, 2010
insert something here
My first A-Level exams are over. Thought I would be really relieved; but I don't feel much different; it's probably because I was pretty relaxed already. Literature was tough so to speak. Really didn't expect to be asked such questions; one of it was nearly the same as what came out for our semester exams but I didn't attempt that so I didn't dare to do it this time; it was pretty risky; cause the other alternative was something we never discussed or even thought of before. I admit it was abit scary to look at the questions and feel blank; yet He calmed my fears and I didn't space out. I don't wanna imagine the results since it's over now.
Will be going back tomorrow morning. Can't wait to be home; and spend some time there before 2nd semester commences next week. I think I just might post on my 1st semester in college since it's officially over; at least it is for me. =D.
Went for dinner with Soni on Saturday. We ate Bak Kut Teh at Subang; it was pretty good.
Dry Bak Kut Teh. More like Dry Chilli Style Pork.. It was really good.
Lasagna at William's two Friday's ago.
I'm selling off my poetry book to a girl from the January batch. Will be keeping my novels for now. Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte and The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne. If anyone's interested; I can lend it to you. Both are incredibly good works of literature; especially the former. Worth reading.
Till then. =)
"If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger: I should not seem a part of it." Catherine Linton; Wuthering Heights
Will be going back tomorrow morning. Can't wait to be home; and spend some time there before 2nd semester commences next week. I think I just might post on my 1st semester in college since it's officially over; at least it is for me. =D.
Went for dinner with Soni on Saturday. We ate Bak Kut Teh at Subang; it was pretty good.
Dry Bak Kut Teh. More like Dry Chilli Style Pork.. It was really good.
Lasagna at William's two Friday's ago.I'm selling off my poetry book to a girl from the January batch. Will be keeping my novels for now. Wuthering Heights by Emily Bronte and The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne. If anyone's interested; I can lend it to you. Both are incredibly good works of literature; especially the former. Worth reading.
Till then. =)
"If all else perished, and he remained, I should still continue to be; and if all else remained, and he were annihilated, the universe would turn to a mighty stranger: I should not seem a part of it." Catherine Linton; Wuthering Heights
Friday, January 15, 2010
love enough
Went to college for CF today; some long story about lunch. Don't wanna get into details.
Was supposed to study at home but I came back at 9something and I'm quite tired right now. Will try to sleep early tonight. A first in a long time.
Watched two movies yesterday; 17 Again and The Time Traveler's Wife. The former was funny and I quite liked it. The latter was moving and has become one of my all-time favorites.. =)
Tomorrow and the day after; I shall go online only for research purposes. Hah. I keep telling myself it's just one more paper and I can't afford to screw up. Therefore I need to do something!! Hopefully; I'd have enough motivation to do it.
Your love it broke my fall
It’s more than enough and I need it
‘Cause I’ve never known better
And I’ll never know better
Was supposed to study at home but I came back at 9something and I'm quite tired right now. Will try to sleep early tonight. A first in a long time.
Watched two movies yesterday; 17 Again and The Time Traveler's Wife. The former was funny and I quite liked it. The latter was moving and has become one of my all-time favorites.. =)
Tomorrow and the day after; I shall go online only for research purposes. Hah. I keep telling myself it's just one more paper and I can't afford to screw up. Therefore I need to do something!! Hopefully; I'd have enough motivation to do it.
Your love it broke my fall
It’s more than enough and I need it
‘Cause I’ve never known better
And I’ll never know better
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
exams
3 papers over and done with. 1 more to go. English Literature; the most interesting subject yet the hardest to score. In college, when you mention Lit; people go like; 'okay.....'
Business Studies was tough. Barely had time so I gave some rather 'crappy' answers. This was yesterday. Ate Espresso ice-cream last night; and had problems falling asleep again. I am now not immune to caffeine. Caffeine used to make me sleepy but I guess that has changed. Finally at 3.30+ I fell asleep... Was afraid I would be really knocked out during exams but I know He provided me with strength cause I didn't feel tired during the papers.
Psychology was okay; tougher than trials. Actually, all the papers were. After the paper ended at 1:45, we were brought up to the Quarantine Room. We had to stay there till 3:30. The main point for it was cause they're afraid that we'd contact other people from other countries doing the paper and stuff like that. Apparently; it happened before... But it wasn't as bad as it sounded. We had the freedom to do 'whatever we want' in the room as long as our handphones were not with us. And Mr. Loo, our psychology lecturer even brought some of us who wanted to go to the canteen to buy food though we weren't supposed to go anywhere else besides the toilet. Hah.
Time passed and then it was time for Economics. I thought Business was bad enough; this just had to be worse. Time was the main factor and it was challenging. I just hope I can get a B or even a C. I always say it's hard and I won't do well; this time I really mean it... And after the paper we were quarantined again from 6-8pm. Not all papers have quarantine periods; so happened I had two in a day. But it was alright.
Since the papers are over; I'm trying not to think about it. Leaving it to God. Not really worried actually... Can't wait for Lit to be over too; so I can go back home! Haha. I don't detest this place; just miss home. I hope I'll study much over the next 4 days though I highly doubt it. But then again; I feel quite free already. He's been so, so faithful.. Till then. =)
Business Studies was tough. Barely had time so I gave some rather 'crappy' answers. This was yesterday. Ate Espresso ice-cream last night; and had problems falling asleep again. I am now not immune to caffeine. Caffeine used to make me sleepy but I guess that has changed. Finally at 3.30+ I fell asleep... Was afraid I would be really knocked out during exams but I know He provided me with strength cause I didn't feel tired during the papers.
Psychology was okay; tougher than trials. Actually, all the papers were. After the paper ended at 1:45, we were brought up to the Quarantine Room. We had to stay there till 3:30. The main point for it was cause they're afraid that we'd contact other people from other countries doing the paper and stuff like that. Apparently; it happened before... But it wasn't as bad as it sounded. We had the freedom to do 'whatever we want' in the room as long as our handphones were not with us. And Mr. Loo, our psychology lecturer even brought some of us who wanted to go to the canteen to buy food though we weren't supposed to go anywhere else besides the toilet. Hah.
Time passed and then it was time for Economics. I thought Business was bad enough; this just had to be worse. Time was the main factor and it was challenging. I just hope I can get a B or even a C. I always say it's hard and I won't do well; this time I really mean it... And after the paper we were quarantined again from 6-8pm. Not all papers have quarantine periods; so happened I had two in a day. But it was alright.
Since the papers are over; I'm trying not to think about it. Leaving it to God. Not really worried actually... Can't wait for Lit to be over too; so I can go back home! Haha. I don't detest this place; just miss home. I hope I'll study much over the next 4 days though I highly doubt it. But then again; I feel quite free already. He's been so, so faithful.. Till then. =)
Monday, January 11, 2010
you stand alone
I cry out night and day for more
To hold the majesty of You
Trying to put everything off my mind right now.
Business Studies tomorrow. edit *tough!!*
Psychology and Econs on Wednesday.
Lit next Monday.
It's not gonna be an easy ride. I have to admit I'm not fully prepared. Holidays were spent; barely touched any books. No point regretting now. I did do some studying; more like revising.
Anyway, don't wanna worry about anything.
He's everything I need. Everything I want... If I have Him; I have everything; this world has nothing to offer me; riches, glory, all of it will fade in time. But the love that is found in Jesus; it lasts forever. Therefore; put your hope not in mortal, earthly things but in Jesus. In every area of your life; be it your studies, relationships, plans and dreams, give them to Jesus and you'll be amazed to see how He works. Time to recommit?
To hold the majesty of You
Trying to put everything off my mind right now.
Psychology and Econs on Wednesday.
Lit next Monday.
It's not gonna be an easy ride. I have to admit I'm not fully prepared. Holidays were spent; barely touched any books. No point regretting now. I did do some studying; more like revising.
Anyway, don't wanna worry about anything.
He's everything I need. Everything I want... If I have Him; I have everything; this world has nothing to offer me; riches, glory, all of it will fade in time. But the love that is found in Jesus; it lasts forever. Therefore; put your hope not in mortal, earthly things but in Jesus. In every area of your life; be it your studies, relationships, plans and dreams, give them to Jesus and you'll be amazed to see how He works. Time to recommit?
Sunday, January 10, 2010
so amazing
Jeremiah 29:13 - You will seek me and find me when you seek me with all your heart.
Make God your EVERYTHING for you will never lose Him.
Truly; He is faithful.
He works in ways far beyond our understanding. The reason why we get disappointed is cause we expect to comprehend His ways. Is that even possible? For He said:
Isaiah 55: 8-9 -
For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,
declares the LORD.
As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
For those who are going through a dry period and cannot feel Him; don't give up, cause He won't. Isn't the truth simply amazing? To know that no matter how much we've hurt Him; how far we stray away; He is always waiting with open arms for us to come back to Him.. And when we do; His eyes are filled with tears of love.. He whispers "I love you my Child, I have been waiting for you..."
As the Psalmist declared: O taste and see that the Lord is good.
Make God your EVERYTHING for you will never lose Him.
Truly; He is faithful.
He works in ways far beyond our understanding. The reason why we get disappointed is cause we expect to comprehend His ways. Is that even possible? For He said:
Isaiah 55: 8-9 -
For my thoughts are not your thoughts,
neither are your ways my ways,
declares the LORD.
As the heavens are higher than the earth,
so are my ways higher than your ways
and my thoughts than your thoughts.
For those who are going through a dry period and cannot feel Him; don't give up, cause He won't. Isn't the truth simply amazing? To know that no matter how much we've hurt Him; how far we stray away; He is always waiting with open arms for us to come back to Him.. And when we do; His eyes are filled with tears of love.. He whispers "I love you my Child, I have been waiting for you..."
As the Psalmist declared: O taste and see that the Lord is good.
Saturday, January 9, 2010
a call to faith
The service started at 11a.m. Sang a few songs and this time around; there wasn't the usual 'funeral songs' like Because He Lives, What A Friend We Have In Jesus, There's A Land That Is Fairer Than Day... Instead, we sang Jesus, God's Righteousness Revealed, In Your Presence, Lord I Lift Your Name On High and the last song was Find Us Faithful.
Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful
May the fire of our devotion light their way
May the footprints that we leave
Lead them to believe
And the lives we live inspire them to obey
Never heard of the song before this day, but it surely meant much.
Uncle Sonny, an elder then spoke. About how he met Pastor Roger and has known him all these years. He was a good and more importantly faithful servant of God. He had a gentle and quiet spirit and though he had his imperfections; he always served Him faithfully. Even though he suffered much; he didn't complain. I still remember seeing how peaceful he was when we visited; it was really uplifting for me. I only hear about how much he had to go through; but I cannot imagine. 14 screws attached to his back for the past months; it was literally like knives cutting into his flesh. The church never gave up hope; never stopped praying. But God had something else in mind and took him home...
He also mentioned how the church took a few slow-learners in for years now; and have been teaching and taking care of them. Many asked why they took on such a burden; but they knew God had a purpose for them there. Then one day, uncle Sonny was wondering why Ps. Roger didn't react to those who did something; and God told him he was God's slow-learner... Indeed; we are all God's slow-learners...
Then Aunty Sally; Ps. Roger's wife came to speak.. A strong woman of God; always admired her. But my heart moved as she spoke... And I knew He was trying to tell me something too. She said she has learnt two things about pain...
1. Pain is a great teacher. It teaches us lessons we would never learn unless we go through it.
2. Pain enables us to release what we cling on to. She mentioned how if not for the suffering her husband had to go through, she and her daughter would never be able to release him back to God... Watching him in pain, they were able to let go of him.
Isn't that true? Without pain; sometimes we fail to see what He wants to; we fail to hear what He's trying to say... And more than that; we cling on to so many things, not willing to let go.. Pain is never without purpose.
Pastor Kim Swee; another family friend, spoke last. He asked us to observe the 1 minute of silence and ponder; not just on the man of God who had been faithful but also the God of who the man served... And he even asked us to applaud after that; it wasn't something usually done during funerals.. But he said that all of heaven applauds the homecoming of a faithful servant and we should rejoice together with the angels in heaven. And so we did.
But mainly; what I've really learned today is that all of us have been called to be faithful. At the end of the day; nothing we've done for Him really matters when compared to the faith we have had.. We were not made to live for ourselves; but to serve Him.
Matthew 25: 37-40 - Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?' "The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'
He's given us life and He's given us an example to follow. Before our time runs out, would we then live to faithfully serve Him; no matter what it takes? Time to ponder...
Oh may all who come behind us find us faithful
May the fire of our devotion light their way
May the footprints that we leave
Lead them to believe
And the lives we live inspire them to obey
Never heard of the song before this day, but it surely meant much.
Uncle Sonny, an elder then spoke. About how he met Pastor Roger and has known him all these years. He was a good and more importantly faithful servant of God. He had a gentle and quiet spirit and though he had his imperfections; he always served Him faithfully. Even though he suffered much; he didn't complain. I still remember seeing how peaceful he was when we visited; it was really uplifting for me. I only hear about how much he had to go through; but I cannot imagine. 14 screws attached to his back for the past months; it was literally like knives cutting into his flesh. The church never gave up hope; never stopped praying. But God had something else in mind and took him home...
He also mentioned how the church took a few slow-learners in for years now; and have been teaching and taking care of them. Many asked why they took on such a burden; but they knew God had a purpose for them there. Then one day, uncle Sonny was wondering why Ps. Roger didn't react to those who did something; and God told him he was God's slow-learner... Indeed; we are all God's slow-learners...
Then Aunty Sally; Ps. Roger's wife came to speak.. A strong woman of God; always admired her. But my heart moved as she spoke... And I knew He was trying to tell me something too. She said she has learnt two things about pain...
1. Pain is a great teacher. It teaches us lessons we would never learn unless we go through it.
2. Pain enables us to release what we cling on to. She mentioned how if not for the suffering her husband had to go through, she and her daughter would never be able to release him back to God... Watching him in pain, they were able to let go of him.
Isn't that true? Without pain; sometimes we fail to see what He wants to; we fail to hear what He's trying to say... And more than that; we cling on to so many things, not willing to let go.. Pain is never without purpose.
Pastor Kim Swee; another family friend, spoke last. He asked us to observe the 1 minute of silence and ponder; not just on the man of God who had been faithful but also the God of who the man served... And he even asked us to applaud after that; it wasn't something usually done during funerals.. But he said that all of heaven applauds the homecoming of a faithful servant and we should rejoice together with the angels in heaven. And so we did.
But mainly; what I've really learned today is that all of us have been called to be faithful. At the end of the day; nothing we've done for Him really matters when compared to the faith we have had.. We were not made to live for ourselves; but to serve Him.
Matthew 25: 37-40 - Then the righteous will answer him, 'Lord, when did we see you hungry and feed you, or thirsty and give you something to drink? When did we see you a stranger and invite you in, or needing clothes and clothe you? When did we see you sick or in prison and go to visit you?' "The King will reply, 'I tell you the truth, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers of mine, you did for me.'
He's given us life and He's given us an example to follow. Before our time runs out, would we then live to faithfully serve Him; no matter what it takes? Time to ponder...
when He speaks...
Couldn't sleep last night. Not sure why; maybe it was because of the green tea I drank at night. Went to bed at 12.30 but only managed to finally sleep at 3.
Tossed; turned. Thought about alot of things; crawled out of bed at 1 cause I felt an urge to just sit at His feet. Still not sure if it was the Holy Spirit that prompted me or it was just me; but then again; it doesn't really matter.
Attended a funeral thanksgiving service this morning; Pastor Roger; one of the MIP Pastors and Pastor of Living Springs Church KL, also a good and long-time friend of the church and family; passed away on Wednesday morning.
I remember visiting him last year; can't remember when. But he was already bed-ridden then. For a year plus he's been suffering from cancer and had serious problems with his back and spine. It was painful to watch him lying down; yet when we went to visit him, he was really glad and even shared alot of things with us.
He was the speaker for our church camp back in April 2008. I'm still keeping the message and I think I'll post up the summary of it. God clearly spoke to us through him and there were many things that were much needed at that time.
My dad came down from Ipoh this morning. Sam asked me if I was going for the service before he went out. He was gonna pick dad up from the station and would fetch me from home if I was going. Was really tired so I said I'll pass. But when I went back to sleep; I didn't feel at peace. I felt like there was an urge for me to go. It wouldn't have made a difference if I was there or not; but still I felt burdened. So I slept and at 10plus I woke up again and told Sam I'll go.
We went for the service. I still didn't understand why He wanted me to be there; but after the service; I realized why. Firstly; it was only right to pay last respects to the deceased; especially a man of God who's been so faithful in serving Him. Secondly; the message was a reminder of what we're all living for.. Thirdly; I met many church and family friends; mostly pastors that I haven't seen for very long.
TBC.
Tossed; turned. Thought about alot of things; crawled out of bed at 1 cause I felt an urge to just sit at His feet. Still not sure if it was the Holy Spirit that prompted me or it was just me; but then again; it doesn't really matter.
Attended a funeral thanksgiving service this morning; Pastor Roger; one of the MIP Pastors and Pastor of Living Springs Church KL, also a good and long-time friend of the church and family; passed away on Wednesday morning.
I remember visiting him last year; can't remember when. But he was already bed-ridden then. For a year plus he's been suffering from cancer and had serious problems with his back and spine. It was painful to watch him lying down; yet when we went to visit him, he was really glad and even shared alot of things with us.
He was the speaker for our church camp back in April 2008. I'm still keeping the message and I think I'll post up the summary of it. God clearly spoke to us through him and there were many things that were much needed at that time.
My dad came down from Ipoh this morning. Sam asked me if I was going for the service before he went out. He was gonna pick dad up from the station and would fetch me from home if I was going. Was really tired so I said I'll pass. But when I went back to sleep; I didn't feel at peace. I felt like there was an urge for me to go. It wouldn't have made a difference if I was there or not; but still I felt burdened. So I slept and at 10plus I woke up again and told Sam I'll go.
We went for the service. I still didn't understand why He wanted me to be there; but after the service; I realized why. Firstly; it was only right to pay last respects to the deceased; especially a man of God who's been so faithful in serving Him. Secondly; the message was a reminder of what we're all living for.. Thirdly; I met many church and family friends; mostly pastors that I haven't seen for very long.
TBC.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
smile at the storm
Will be going back to KL tomorrow. I admit I haven't been revising. Not like you guys will be surprised anyway. Hah. After tomorrow; I'm grounding myself at home in KL till exams are over. The only exception being church and college. Exactly a week till the 1st paper. Don't know if I'll have enough time but then again; no point regretting now.
Gonna pack later. I don't think I'd be blogging much till my exams are over and done with. Would have lots to rant on about then.
God has been so amazing. Though I've made mistakes, I don't regret much. There's still so much I have to learn; about Him, about people and about life... Experiences; good or bad; are supposed to teach you. If you decide not to learn anything from it; that's when you only see the down side.
Were I to seek the mortal mind,
despair would fill my heart.
But long ago I've learned to view
the whole and not the part.
For He who guides my every step
with vision unimpaired,
has given promise in His word
that I've been fully spared!
Anyway, pictures!!
Looks so cool right. HAHA.
Had New Year's dinner at home with family.. We had a three course meal..
Salad. Samuel made it..
Garlic Bread; Stv made but no pictures..
Shepherd's pie by mum.
Cake by me. LOL. But it's an instant cake mix only la =p.
And then there was red wine too. Took a sip of it; and realized/remembered why I never liked it.
Christmas Eve
Kelsey!! So glad to see her.. =)
Shao Wen, Jason and me
Qi Vin.
Marcus.
JANEE!!
And lastly; Rachel, who's going back to UK in two days. =(
Gonna pack later. I don't think I'd be blogging much till my exams are over and done with. Would have lots to rant on about then.
God has been so amazing. Though I've made mistakes, I don't regret much. There's still so much I have to learn; about Him, about people and about life... Experiences; good or bad; are supposed to teach you. If you decide not to learn anything from it; that's when you only see the down side.
Were I to seek the mortal mind,
despair would fill my heart.
But long ago I've learned to view
the whole and not the part.
For He who guides my every step
with vision unimpaired,
has given promise in His word
that I've been fully spared!
Anyway, pictures!!
Looks so cool right. HAHA.
Had New Year's dinner at home with family.. We had a three course meal..
Salad. Samuel made it..Garlic Bread; Stv made but no pictures..
Shepherd's pie by mum.
Cake by me. LOL. But it's an instant cake mix only la =p.
And then there was red wine too. Took a sip of it; and realized/remembered why I never liked it.Christmas Eve
Kelsey!! So glad to see her.. =)
Shao Wen, Jason and me
Qi Vin.
Marcus.
JANEE!!
And lastly; Rachel, who's going back to UK in two days. =(That's all for now. Till then!! Got to really start studying... At least I've gotta try. =p
Faithful One
Faithful One
Monday, January 4, 2010
closer
Every tear that had to fall from my eyes,
Every day I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change life has thrown me
I'm thankful for every break in my heart;
I'm grateful for every scar
Some pages turned;
Some bridges burned;
But there were lessons learned.
I used to ask Him if He could take the pain away. I used to break down and cry helplessly pleading He would see the pain and comfort me. It didn't go away; but He held me through it all. Words cannot express how comforting it was to know that my Father saw my pain; and never once did He leave me to face it all alone.
Now I look back and thank God for every bitter experience I've been through. Even though I can't fully understand why it happened; I know it was to prepare me for something greater...
I finally found out the 'truth'. At least; it's what I'm supposed to believe. Things are still not cleared up; I wanted the truth. But it seems like I've only gotten part of it. Things are still left unsettled; not clarified. I thought it would be; but I was wrong again. Then I decided to do something about it. Cause I won't have the chance to anymore; until I realized things I didn't see before. Things I always knew; but never really applied to me. Things He taught me yet I never really understood. Things I keep reminding myself; but never really tried to follow..
In the midst of confusion, brokenness and despair; I told him I didn't understand why. He was silent. And then.. He said..
I want you to have the best.. Would you allow me to give it to you?
I'm still feeling the sting. It still saddens me at times. I feel used; feel like I've been tampered with... But all this only brings me back to Him; brings me nearer and nearer.
I've been lying to myself for too long... It's time to come back.
We don't need the answers to all of life's questions. We just need to know that He knows what He's doing. He's our Father after all.
Jesus, You're all I need.
Every day I wondered how I'd get through the night,
Every change life has thrown me
I'm thankful for every break in my heart;
I'm grateful for every scar
Some pages turned;
Some bridges burned;
But there were lessons learned.
I used to ask Him if He could take the pain away. I used to break down and cry helplessly pleading He would see the pain and comfort me. It didn't go away; but He held me through it all. Words cannot express how comforting it was to know that my Father saw my pain; and never once did He leave me to face it all alone.
Now I look back and thank God for every bitter experience I've been through. Even though I can't fully understand why it happened; I know it was to prepare me for something greater...
I finally found out the 'truth'. At least; it's what I'm supposed to believe. Things are still not cleared up; I wanted the truth. But it seems like I've only gotten part of it. Things are still left unsettled; not clarified. I thought it would be; but I was wrong again. Then I decided to do something about it. Cause I won't have the chance to anymore; until I realized things I didn't see before. Things I always knew; but never really applied to me. Things He taught me yet I never really understood. Things I keep reminding myself; but never really tried to follow..
In the midst of confusion, brokenness and despair; I told him I didn't understand why. He was silent. And then.. He said..
I want you to have the best.. Would you allow me to give it to you?
I'm still feeling the sting. It still saddens me at times. I feel used; feel like I've been tampered with... But all this only brings me back to Him; brings me nearer and nearer.
I've been lying to myself for too long... It's time to come back.
We don't need the answers to all of life's questions. We just need to know that He knows what He's doing. He's our Father after all.
Jesus, You're all I need.
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Youth Camp 2009 - Acknowledgements
I'd like to thank some people that have been such a blessing in some way or another for this camp..
Yi Wen, thanks so so much for everything! I don't think I'd be able to handle the games without you. The games committee needed someone to take charge and I'm glad to have worked with you.. Got to know you much better through all the planning and stuff =). Really appreciate everything.. Thanks again!
Aunty Gueh Im, thanks for helping out as well. For driving us to shop for the stuff; giving such great ideas and insightful comments; for overseeing everything.
Ps. Elaine, thanks for entrusting me with all the responsibilities and also for being so helpful when we needed things for the games.. You sacrificed the most; hope you will see the fruits of your labour for Him..
Timothy, thanks for being such an awesome Camp Papa; taking away alot of burdens of what I had to do. Thanks for helping me out as well for all the games during camp. Glad to have worked with you!
Darren, thanks for giving so many great ideas for games!! You were one of the biggest contributors to the planning even though you couldn't come for camp you still were so willing to help..
Qi Vin, thanks for helping out and being ever ready to though you had your own things to take care of. Thanks for being my driver before camp and for all the fun you brought to our discussions; and ideas too la..
Jenny, thanks for your help as well.. You did much more than you think you did; you were always willing to help and that itself was more than enough. Also, thanks for sharing my burdens in camp.. You know what I mean..
Samuel, thanks for all your jokes (Chin Peng). LOL. Though you didn't give as much as helpful/useful ideas as you should have, it was still a joy to have you around. Thanks for carrying all the items after shopping. =p. I have to salute you for being the best 'character' during the Mafia game.
To the other Games Committee/Agency 11: Shao Wen, Stephen, Vincent, Kirsten, Debbie, Kai Bing, Abel: Thanks for all the help, really appreciate it. Couldn't have done it without you guys.
To the band; Wai Jon, Ben Chai, Andrew Wong, Nicole Yean, Grace Lee, Nicole Chong and Emmanuel: Thanks for serving in the band for the worship sessions; glad that I had a chance to serve with you guys. You guys are a great, talented bunch of people. Do remember what we talked about in camp. =)
To all campers: Thanks for all of you guys!! Though I didn't get to know all of you; still glad for the fellowship and fun we had. Hope you had a great experience as well..
Learnt alot through the whole experience. It wasn't easy; was on the verge of having a burn out. But He sustained me and though not all things went as we hoped for, still it was alright. Most important of all; many learnt about Him in the camp, many realized things they needed to, some were brought back to Him. Games, fun, fellowship might be all great but its all rendered useless if no one learns anything...
My posts on youth camp ends here. Thanks for patiently reading through if you have.. God bless!!
Yi Wen, thanks so so much for everything! I don't think I'd be able to handle the games without you. The games committee needed someone to take charge and I'm glad to have worked with you.. Got to know you much better through all the planning and stuff =). Really appreciate everything.. Thanks again!
Aunty Gueh Im, thanks for helping out as well. For driving us to shop for the stuff; giving such great ideas and insightful comments; for overseeing everything.
Ps. Elaine, thanks for entrusting me with all the responsibilities and also for being so helpful when we needed things for the games.. You sacrificed the most; hope you will see the fruits of your labour for Him..
Timothy, thanks for being such an awesome Camp Papa; taking away alot of burdens of what I had to do. Thanks for helping me out as well for all the games during camp. Glad to have worked with you!
Darren, thanks for giving so many great ideas for games!! You were one of the biggest contributors to the planning even though you couldn't come for camp you still were so willing to help..
Qi Vin, thanks for helping out and being ever ready to though you had your own things to take care of. Thanks for being my driver before camp and for all the fun you brought to our discussions; and ideas too la..
Jenny, thanks for your help as well.. You did much more than you think you did; you were always willing to help and that itself was more than enough. Also, thanks for sharing my burdens in camp.. You know what I mean..
Samuel, thanks for all your jokes (Chin Peng). LOL. Though you didn't give as much as helpful/useful ideas as you should have, it was still a joy to have you around. Thanks for carrying all the items after shopping. =p. I have to salute you for being the best 'character' during the Mafia game.
To the other Games Committee/Agency 11: Shao Wen, Stephen, Vincent, Kirsten, Debbie, Kai Bing, Abel: Thanks for all the help, really appreciate it. Couldn't have done it without you guys.
To the band; Wai Jon, Ben Chai, Andrew Wong, Nicole Yean, Grace Lee, Nicole Chong and Emmanuel: Thanks for serving in the band for the worship sessions; glad that I had a chance to serve with you guys. You guys are a great, talented bunch of people. Do remember what we talked about in camp. =)
To all campers: Thanks for all of you guys!! Though I didn't get to know all of you; still glad for the fellowship and fun we had. Hope you had a great experience as well..
Learnt alot through the whole experience. It wasn't easy; was on the verge of having a burn out. But He sustained me and though not all things went as we hoped for, still it was alright. Most important of all; many learnt about Him in the camp, many realized things they needed to, some were brought back to Him. Games, fun, fellowship might be all great but its all rendered useless if no one learns anything...
My posts on youth camp ends here. Thanks for patiently reading through if you have.. God bless!!
Youth Camp 2009 - Part 2
Camp (Dec 14- 17)
Gonna break it up into different sections instead of days..
The theme was What Would Jesus Desire?
Place:
It took some time before we got used to the place. No air-cond in rooms, flies in the canteen, stuffy hall, flights of stairs that weren't connected, cold shower. Compared to the previous campsites, this definitely wasn't as nice and comfortable. Many complained, could see why. But we learnt a valuable lesson as well. And after awhile, most people stopped complaining and started to really enjoy themselves.
Food:
Food was alright. No complains there. I think when you go for a camp; you don't expect much of the food; I'd say I was grateful cause it wasn't as bad as I expected... And they sold some drinks there as well. People were talking bout the Ice Milo but didn't get to try it. LOL
Misc:
Led two worship sessions; First night and third morning. Initially thought that was all I was gonna be involved in, till the games came along, then Camp Mama. I really enjoyed it though it was abit tiring and stressful at times. And I was afraid of losing my voice again; Youth Camp 08 was bad enough. Thank God I only nearly lost it on the last day; didn't really need it then. We also made one of the classrooms our meeting place and store room. It was the only open room in that particular block so it was rather safe and 'private'.
Sessions:
Overall the sessions were good. Not the type where you go WOW, feel the anointing of God, get slain by the Holy Spirit. No altar calls. But it didn't make it any less better. This year, I personally didn't expect much; but after the 1st session I realized how much God wanted to speak to me. On the first night, after dinner, I was talking to a friend in camp about certain things. He was sharing with me about issues that was going on in his life and the struggles he was having. I told him some things; some of which I've learnt through past experience. That night, the speaker mentioned the same things I told him. I thought it was a way God confirmed what He wanted him to know; that two people say the same things.. It wasn't just that, but I also told him a story about a person who had a dream about 3 women experiencing God in different ways. And the speaker told the exact same story that night. I don't think it's coincidence, it's just Him.
Some of the topics shared were basic stuff; like knowing Him, but it was good because it brought us all back to realize that too often we get carried away by what we do for Him that we forget that we were made to know Him and to know Him more and more... Many of the things I've learnt were reinstated by the speaker. I bet it was the same for many others as well..
God spoke to me through the last worship session on the 4th morning. I knew then that He was right there with me all along; He touched me when I needed Him most. This is the God I know; this is the Father who cares for me; this is Jesus who loves me; this is the Spirit who comforts me..
Games:
Orientation - Flags, Agency Acronym Names and Shout-outs had to be done on the first day. Agency 11 that consisted of us older ones/Games Committee and Helpers; we named our group FROG that stands for FULLY RELY ON GOD. It was weird that we just couldn't come up with a group shout-out since most have been to quite many youth camps.. Nearly gave up trying since we didn't really have to do it; but in the LAST few minutes we just came up with random things and ended up doing what we did. LOL. I personally liked WAT's shout-out the most. Would've awarded them first if we gave points for shout-outs.
Indoor Games (2nd day) - Didn't want to be in charge of too many things so I briefed Kai Bing, Debbie, Kirsten and Qi Vin about the games. They took a game each. Before the indoor games the groups presented their movie trailers. Generally good. The games went pretty alright. The funniest was the Musical Balloons. See everyone running and fighting over balloons... And the Pirate game was fun to watch too. Haha.
Inglorious Mafia (2nd night) - Finally, after all the long hours spent on planning this game, it was time. We already decided beforehand to really play our roles which also meant that we had to 'dress up' as our characters. The game went much better than I expected. Thought it was either gonna be too easy/too hard. But we could slow it down or speed it up anyway... Initially it was abit messy cause we nearly couldn't find some items. Turned out to be just fine. Everyone did a good job. Thank God the weather was nice..
Took this shot in the classroom before the game started... Too bad not all were in.
Others:
Christmas Celebration on the last night was quite fun too. Icebreakers, Games, Extended Worship, Carols. Had some things going on. During camp itself, as much as I was busy, there were certain issues that I had to deal with and He really comforted me through it all. I really didn't wanna go back home to be honest... I really enjoyed camp despite having lots to think about, lots to do... Maybe all those added to what made it so great...
TBC
Gonna break it up into different sections instead of days..
The theme was What Would Jesus Desire?
Place:
It took some time before we got used to the place. No air-cond in rooms, flies in the canteen, stuffy hall, flights of stairs that weren't connected, cold shower. Compared to the previous campsites, this definitely wasn't as nice and comfortable. Many complained, could see why. But we learnt a valuable lesson as well. And after awhile, most people stopped complaining and started to really enjoy themselves.
Food:
Food was alright. No complains there. I think when you go for a camp; you don't expect much of the food; I'd say I was grateful cause it wasn't as bad as I expected... And they sold some drinks there as well. People were talking bout the Ice Milo but didn't get to try it. LOL
Misc:
Led two worship sessions; First night and third morning. Initially thought that was all I was gonna be involved in, till the games came along, then Camp Mama. I really enjoyed it though it was abit tiring and stressful at times. And I was afraid of losing my voice again; Youth Camp 08 was bad enough. Thank God I only nearly lost it on the last day; didn't really need it then. We also made one of the classrooms our meeting place and store room. It was the only open room in that particular block so it was rather safe and 'private'.
Sessions:
Overall the sessions were good. Not the type where you go WOW, feel the anointing of God, get slain by the Holy Spirit. No altar calls. But it didn't make it any less better. This year, I personally didn't expect much; but after the 1st session I realized how much God wanted to speak to me. On the first night, after dinner, I was talking to a friend in camp about certain things. He was sharing with me about issues that was going on in his life and the struggles he was having. I told him some things; some of which I've learnt through past experience. That night, the speaker mentioned the same things I told him. I thought it was a way God confirmed what He wanted him to know; that two people say the same things.. It wasn't just that, but I also told him a story about a person who had a dream about 3 women experiencing God in different ways. And the speaker told the exact same story that night. I don't think it's coincidence, it's just Him.
Some of the topics shared were basic stuff; like knowing Him, but it was good because it brought us all back to realize that too often we get carried away by what we do for Him that we forget that we were made to know Him and to know Him more and more... Many of the things I've learnt were reinstated by the speaker. I bet it was the same for many others as well..
God spoke to me through the last worship session on the 4th morning. I knew then that He was right there with me all along; He touched me when I needed Him most. This is the God I know; this is the Father who cares for me; this is Jesus who loves me; this is the Spirit who comforts me..
Games:
Orientation - Flags, Agency Acronym Names and Shout-outs had to be done on the first day. Agency 11 that consisted of us older ones/Games Committee and Helpers; we named our group FROG that stands for FULLY RELY ON GOD. It was weird that we just couldn't come up with a group shout-out since most have been to quite many youth camps.. Nearly gave up trying since we didn't really have to do it; but in the LAST few minutes we just came up with random things and ended up doing what we did. LOL. I personally liked WAT's shout-out the most. Would've awarded them first if we gave points for shout-outs.
Indoor Games (2nd day) - Didn't want to be in charge of too many things so I briefed Kai Bing, Debbie, Kirsten and Qi Vin about the games. They took a game each. Before the indoor games the groups presented their movie trailers. Generally good. The games went pretty alright. The funniest was the Musical Balloons. See everyone running and fighting over balloons... And the Pirate game was fun to watch too. Haha.
Inglorious Mafia (2nd night) - Finally, after all the long hours spent on planning this game, it was time. We already decided beforehand to really play our roles which also meant that we had to 'dress up' as our characters. The game went much better than I expected. Thought it was either gonna be too easy/too hard. But we could slow it down or speed it up anyway... Initially it was abit messy cause we nearly couldn't find some items. Turned out to be just fine. Everyone did a good job. Thank God the weather was nice..
Took this shot in the classroom before the game started... Too bad not all were in.
Station Games (3rd day) - 7 stations altogether. Weather was abit too hot at first; especially me and Jenny, our station was literally the hottest. But it got better after awhile, if they had fun it was more than worth it. Preparation was abit rushed but it was okay too. Abel's station was too easy at first, so he came up with variations and more things to do. Knowing Abel, only he can pull it off. Haha. HAHA.
Others:
Christmas Celebration on the last night was quite fun too. Icebreakers, Games, Extended Worship, Carols. Had some things going on. During camp itself, as much as I was busy, there were certain issues that I had to deal with and He really comforted me through it all. I really didn't wanna go back home to be honest... I really enjoyed camp despite having lots to think about, lots to do... Maybe all those added to what made it so great...
TBC
Youth Camp 2009 - Part 1
I said I was gonna post this up after camp; finally got the time to do it.
Before... (Dec 6 - 13)
So a week before youth camp; I went for youth. They had 'Kampung Games' that day. All the 'older' ones just sat back and watched. Then Aunty Gueh Im asked me if I had any ideas for games for camp and if I could help out. I thought it would have been planned out by the form 4's already but they had very few people. Anyway I said I'd try to help as much as I could. Had a meeting that day for the games. Nothing much planned out but we kinda formed the Games Committee that day. Had a rather long meeting on Monday; continued on Tuesday. I think the Night Games took the longest time to plan; since it was the most complicated. Right up till camp there were still lots of things to do. The planning committee consisted of; Yi Wen, Aunty Gueh Im, Jenny and Samuel (the only f4's), Qi Vin, Darren, Shao Wen and me.
Aunty Gueh Im, me and Samuel went to town on Wednesday to get all the stuff we needed. A day before; we went to Tesco but only managed to get a few items. On Sunday; Qi Vin, Darren, Yi Wen and me met in church along with a few others to check all the items and make sure everything was settled. It was then that me, Qi Vin, Darren and Samuel shot the 'Wooden Spoon' video in the playground. Poor Samuel had to be wrapped in garbage bags and lie on the grass for quite some time. Haha.
We initially planned a Mafia theme for our camp games to be based on; but it changed to the Secret Agencies soon after. We realized we didn't want to sending out the wrong message or glorify the Mafia. But we couldn't change the night game idea cause we spent so long putting it together. At least 4 hours. So Aunty Gueh Im suggested the new theme and she came up with the Almighty's Secret Service... Cool eh? Hah. And then I had to think of stuff to put in the booklet so I just came up with something random about the A.S.S.
To be continued..
Before... (Dec 6 - 13)
So a week before youth camp; I went for youth. They had 'Kampung Games' that day. All the 'older' ones just sat back and watched. Then Aunty Gueh Im asked me if I had any ideas for games for camp and if I could help out. I thought it would have been planned out by the form 4's already but they had very few people. Anyway I said I'd try to help as much as I could. Had a meeting that day for the games. Nothing much planned out but we kinda formed the Games Committee that day. Had a rather long meeting on Monday; continued on Tuesday. I think the Night Games took the longest time to plan; since it was the most complicated. Right up till camp there were still lots of things to do. The planning committee consisted of; Yi Wen, Aunty Gueh Im, Jenny and Samuel (the only f4's), Qi Vin, Darren, Shao Wen and me.
Aunty Gueh Im, me and Samuel went to town on Wednesday to get all the stuff we needed. A day before; we went to Tesco but only managed to get a few items. On Sunday; Qi Vin, Darren, Yi Wen and me met in church along with a few others to check all the items and make sure everything was settled. It was then that me, Qi Vin, Darren and Samuel shot the 'Wooden Spoon' video in the playground. Poor Samuel had to be wrapped in garbage bags and lie on the grass for quite some time. Haha.
We initially planned a Mafia theme for our camp games to be based on; but it changed to the Secret Agencies soon after. We realized we didn't want to sending out the wrong message or glorify the Mafia. But we couldn't change the night game idea cause we spent so long putting it together. At least 4 hours. So Aunty Gueh Im suggested the new theme and she came up with the Almighty's Secret Service... Cool eh? Hah. And then I had to think of stuff to put in the booklet so I just came up with something random about the A.S.S.
To be continued..
Friday, January 1, 2010
2010
Here's a recollection of what I myself have said about a new year in the past...
"I'm not afraid of what's to come and happen cause I have God by my side. And if we would believe and have faith in Him, the year would definitely be a significant one. =)." End of 2006
"Sweet Sixteen? More like BitterSweet. The times of sorrow outnumbered the times of joy. But it was in those times where I've learned to depend more on Him and not on my own strength." End of 2007
"Many things happened. Happy things, sad things.. Many tears were shed.. But I know it was not in vain. It was the toughest year so far for me.. And at times I used to wonder if things could get any worse.. But it was during those painful moments that I experienced His mercy.. I experienced His love. And most of all, through it all, He was there for me.. What more could I ask for?" End of 2008
This time around; I don't think I'd be saying anything too different. If 2007 was a year of trust; 2008 a year of pain then 2009 has been a year of a mixture of both. 7 is the number. Not gonna mention the number for what; maybe some would get it. It was a very weird year somehow... Didn't have to go to school anymore; college is obviously different. Broke free from the trap I've been trapped in for so long and it felt weird at first... Was jumping from here to there; never found the right place to rest except in His arms. Through the confusion and the questions that would constantly swarm my mind; He taught me lessons of faith, hope and love..
I don't really have any resolutions for this year; some say there's no obligation to do it; some even say you know you won't be able to keep it; so why make any? Somewhat true.
You don't need to wait for the New Year to want to change; to want to make a list of what things you want to achieve... It can be done anytime. But if there was just one resolution I want to make; it's to continue to grow and grow in Him. Isn't that what we were made for? To know Him; to be like Him?? And it's amazing that we can never know enough of Him. There will never be a day where we can say "I know everything about Him.". This makes me fall in love with Him even more; that He is just far too big and great for me to comprehend.. Indeed; how GREAT is our God... Have you ever realized that one of the reasons why we feel so far away from Him sometimes is because we've come to think that we know Him enough. If we can see that there's so much more to know about Him; this search for the truth will simply never end..
There are alot of things I want to change about myself. The flaws I have are too great at times. Then I realize that if I want to be more like Him then I've got to be ready for whatever comes... The joy, the pain; all of it. Got to embrace it.
Lord; I'm ready for You. Though it may hurt; though it may break me; I am willing. There will be times I will not understand what I go through; but I want to continue to trust You... For You alone are worthy.
Philippians 3:13 - Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead...
We should never be afraid of the future. He's got it all in His hands.
"I'm not afraid of what's to come and happen cause I have God by my side. And if we would believe and have faith in Him, the year would definitely be a significant one. =)." End of 2006
"Sweet Sixteen? More like BitterSweet. The times of sorrow outnumbered the times of joy. But it was in those times where I've learned to depend more on Him and not on my own strength." End of 2007
"Many things happened. Happy things, sad things.. Many tears were shed.. But I know it was not in vain. It was the toughest year so far for me.. And at times I used to wonder if things could get any worse.. But it was during those painful moments that I experienced His mercy.. I experienced His love. And most of all, through it all, He was there for me.. What more could I ask for?" End of 2008
This time around; I don't think I'd be saying anything too different. If 2007 was a year of trust; 2008 a year of pain then 2009 has been a year of a mixture of both. 7 is the number. Not gonna mention the number for what; maybe some would get it. It was a very weird year somehow... Didn't have to go to school anymore; college is obviously different. Broke free from the trap I've been trapped in for so long and it felt weird at first... Was jumping from here to there; never found the right place to rest except in His arms. Through the confusion and the questions that would constantly swarm my mind; He taught me lessons of faith, hope and love..
I don't really have any resolutions for this year; some say there's no obligation to do it; some even say you know you won't be able to keep it; so why make any? Somewhat true.
You don't need to wait for the New Year to want to change; to want to make a list of what things you want to achieve... It can be done anytime. But if there was just one resolution I want to make; it's to continue to grow and grow in Him. Isn't that what we were made for? To know Him; to be like Him?? And it's amazing that we can never know enough of Him. There will never be a day where we can say "I know everything about Him.". This makes me fall in love with Him even more; that He is just far too big and great for me to comprehend.. Indeed; how GREAT is our God... Have you ever realized that one of the reasons why we feel so far away from Him sometimes is because we've come to think that we know Him enough. If we can see that there's so much more to know about Him; this search for the truth will simply never end..
There are alot of things I want to change about myself. The flaws I have are too great at times. Then I realize that if I want to be more like Him then I've got to be ready for whatever comes... The joy, the pain; all of it. Got to embrace it.
Lord; I'm ready for You. Though it may hurt; though it may break me; I am willing. There will be times I will not understand what I go through; but I want to continue to trust You... For You alone are worthy.
Philippians 3:13 - Brothers, I do not consider myself yet to have taken hold of it. But one thing I do: Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead...
We should never be afraid of the future. He's got it all in His hands.
2009
2009. Really feels like the year just went by like that...
January (Dec 26 2008 - Jan 4 2009)
Was one of the 10 Malaysians to participate in the 5th International Students Camp organized by SUFES East/West Asia in SUFES Tapah Campsite/Ipoh. The best 10 days of my life. Missing all my friends from all over Asia.
January - May - Started working in a nursery on the last week of January. Worked for nearly 3 months plus. The first week of May was my last week of work there. I was a teacher/babysitter. The experience was good even though it did wear me out pretty often. It's not easy being around 10+ kids everyday... It's not like I don't already have a kid at home. Hah. But the best thing out of all of it was the bond I had with my boss.. A great woman; a widow and a mother of 3. I won't forget all the conversations we had. Learnt alot from her about kids and quite frequently we talk about church, Christianity and issues like that. She even shared alot of her personal things with me. Was blessed by her in many ways and she claims that she's been blessed by me too. No regrets.
February (Feb 16 - 18)
Went to Cherating with a bunch of friends. It was nice.. And it was the first trip I ever had with friends.. =)
March
- Got my driving license early March. Retook the exam then. First one was mid February and I failed. Thankfully; I passed the second time around.
March 17- 20 - ISCF Camp 09 was a blast. Previously in 2008; ISCF was kinda 'handed' down to me even though I was doubtful back then. But God surely had His way in speaking and through different things He reminded me that He was gonna be with me all the way and there was nothing to fear. So we formed the camp committee and organized the camp. Was Camp Commander; with the rest of the committee; the burden wasn't too heavy to bear. Greater things are YET to come.
How could I forget???? MARCH 15
MAN UTD 1 - LIVERPOOL 4. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA. Vidic sent off again for two offences; Sep 2008; Liv won and he got sent off then. I can still remember the joy... Throat was sore after the game.
April
The ISCF'ers missed each other too much that we organized a reunion at Jenny's house.
May
Stv's graduation in Singapore. And Sam came back from the States this month too. I think....
June
Can't recall any significant event here. The only thing I remember was that I realized alot of things that month... Was also the last month of freedom before college began in July.
July
-Enrolled into Methodist College. Some of you would know this wasn't my plan; but due to certain things; I changed my mind and yeah decided to go here; it was what my parents preferred anyway. I still laugh when I think of the real reason I dropped my whole Singapore plan; it's funny now; but I still believe God allowed it all to happen.. If it didn't; I don't think I'd be here right now. He sometimes works in amazingly funny ways...
-BBQ Nite (July 31)
College event. Performed with my new July batch friends. Was pretty nervous; but it didn't turn out so bad after all... The event was quite fun though I wasn't really in the mood for it.
August
Aug 7-9 - College Orientation Camp at SUFES Tapah Campsite AGAIN. Nostalgic.
The week after camp; everyday more and more of those who went started to get sick. The symptoms were pretty much the same; vomit, fever and headache. It wasn't H1N1; they suspected it to be the water in camp. Nearly 3/4 of those who went for the camp got sick. Because I was one of those who remained unaffected; my college mates called me Jungle Girl.
Aug 28 - 31 - College CF Camp at Bethany Home, Teluk Intan
Camp was okay. Didn't expect much from it but glad to have made new friends there. And also; God spoke to me; the speaker told me exactly what I needed to remember...
September
-Was a pretty good month
October
The month started off well; till that day. It was a tough period for me... And my trials were just around the corner. But as always; God was gracious; did so much better than I expected or deserved..
My consolation this month was LIVERPOOL - MAN UTD. 2-0... I was ECSTATIC. We had a bad run of games and this one was definitely unexpected. But as I watched; I realized how overrated MU is.. And Vidic got sent off again for the 3rd time. LOLLLL.
November
Surprise Birthday Celebration at RED BOX, The Gardens by college mates..
Thanks again guys =)
December
Holiday.
Youth Camp (Will post about it soon)
To be continued...
January (Dec 26 2008 - Jan 4 2009)
Was one of the 10 Malaysians to participate in the 5th International Students Camp organized by SUFES East/West Asia in SUFES Tapah Campsite/Ipoh. The best 10 days of my life. Missing all my friends from all over Asia.
January - May - Started working in a nursery on the last week of January. Worked for nearly 3 months plus. The first week of May was my last week of work there. I was a teacher/babysitter. The experience was good even though it did wear me out pretty often. It's not easy being around 10+ kids everyday... It's not like I don't already have a kid at home. Hah. But the best thing out of all of it was the bond I had with my boss.. A great woman; a widow and a mother of 3. I won't forget all the conversations we had. Learnt alot from her about kids and quite frequently we talk about church, Christianity and issues like that. She even shared alot of her personal things with me. Was blessed by her in many ways and she claims that she's been blessed by me too. No regrets.
February (Feb 16 - 18)
Went to Cherating with a bunch of friends. It was nice.. And it was the first trip I ever had with friends.. =)
March
- Got my driving license early March. Retook the exam then. First one was mid February and I failed. Thankfully; I passed the second time around.
March 17- 20 - ISCF Camp 09 was a blast. Previously in 2008; ISCF was kinda 'handed' down to me even though I was doubtful back then. But God surely had His way in speaking and through different things He reminded me that He was gonna be with me all the way and there was nothing to fear. So we formed the camp committee and organized the camp. Was Camp Commander; with the rest of the committee; the burden wasn't too heavy to bear. Greater things are YET to come.
MAN UTD 1 - LIVERPOOL 4. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHA. Vidic sent off again for two offences; Sep 2008; Liv won and he got sent off then. I can still remember the joy... Throat was sore after the game.
April
The ISCF'ers missed each other too much that we organized a reunion at Jenny's house.
May
Stv's graduation in Singapore. And Sam came back from the States this month too. I think....
June
Can't recall any significant event here. The only thing I remember was that I realized alot of things that month... Was also the last month of freedom before college began in July.
July
-Enrolled into Methodist College. Some of you would know this wasn't my plan; but due to certain things; I changed my mind and yeah decided to go here; it was what my parents preferred anyway. I still laugh when I think of the real reason I dropped my whole Singapore plan; it's funny now; but I still believe God allowed it all to happen.. If it didn't; I don't think I'd be here right now. He sometimes works in amazingly funny ways...
-BBQ Nite (July 31)
College event. Performed with my new July batch friends. Was pretty nervous; but it didn't turn out so bad after all... The event was quite fun though I wasn't really in the mood for it.
August
Aug 7-9 - College Orientation Camp at SUFES Tapah Campsite AGAIN. Nostalgic.
The week after camp; everyday more and more of those who went started to get sick. The symptoms were pretty much the same; vomit, fever and headache. It wasn't H1N1; they suspected it to be the water in camp. Nearly 3/4 of those who went for the camp got sick. Because I was one of those who remained unaffected; my college mates called me Jungle Girl.
Aug 28 - 31 - College CF Camp at Bethany Home, Teluk Intan
Camp was okay. Didn't expect much from it but glad to have made new friends there. And also; God spoke to me; the speaker told me exactly what I needed to remember...
September
-Was a pretty good month
October
The month started off well; till that day. It was a tough period for me... And my trials were just around the corner. But as always; God was gracious; did so much better than I expected or deserved..
My consolation this month was LIVERPOOL - MAN UTD. 2-0... I was ECSTATIC. We had a bad run of games and this one was definitely unexpected. But as I watched; I realized how overrated MU is.. And Vidic got sent off again for the 3rd time. LOLLLL.
November
Surprise Birthday Celebration at RED BOX, The Gardens by college mates..
Thanks again guys =)
December
Holiday.
Youth Camp (Will post about it soon)
To be continued...
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